Experience, Friends, Happy Thoughts

Before And After Me

I used to love going out like A LOT.  And by that I meant drinking til I’m passed out drunk, going home past 12am, doing hella crazy stuff or YOLO for short. People who know me back in college can easily pinpoint me as one of those gals who is down for anything crazy and illegal. I don’t do drugs or anything major like that but more subtle things like drunk driving or anything alcohol-involved. I wasn’t always like that though…

Back before I became so open-minded and liberal-kinda, I was this geek girl who was a KPOP, JPOP, Kdrama, Jdrama, anything international-language-that-you-can’t-even-pronounce drama fan. I was this student who participated in Sudoko challenges in school. I even joined the Rubik’s cube challenge back in college with no friends to support me because my interests were too odd for them. I lost in round one though, but it didn’t matter because I felt fulfilled trying my best. I WAS THAT SIMPLE GIRL. Literally. I remember in my first year of college, I only had four or five t-shirts and two pairs of pants to wear at school. Everything I had was oversized shirts except for this one blue- striped blouse that I bought before school started. I was wearing it every week it became impossible for every single one of my block mates to have missed. How’d I know? A few years later, one of them confessed she could still draw that blouse by heart. See? I was this home-to-school school-to-home girl. But then life got in the way and decided to revamped my life. I started hanging out after class more. I learned how to wear skinny jeans. I got conscious and decided that three cups of rice per meal was more than a mortal sin. Although, I allowed it on my menstrual periods because damn girl give me some slack! Thinking about it now, I did became another person. I didn’t realize it back then because I was too preoccupied with the changes happening to me. My mom got pretty upset of what was happening and then the confused little girl inside me threw a tantrum and did bad things. You know, usual stories about good girl gone bad.

When it became too much, I begged my mom to get me out of the country. I was then in the U.S. for a year. Got what I finally wanted and learned to love myself again. I found myself beginning to return to who I was before. Even though, I couldn’t be the perfect replica of my older version I can say I have improved a lot for the better. Despite all of the hardship, I am very thankful for the lessons and experiences. I wouldn’t be me now if it weren’t for those.

But then, I came home late last year and got pretty depressed for a couple of months. Maybe because reality hit me again. My indecisive self could not keep up with things. Nowadays, I don’t hang out with my friends because I feel like I’m lagging behind them. I feel we have this friendship gap probably because I was absent for a year or I’m not in the same stage as them anymore. Also, the usual family dramas keeps on hunting me everyday. It’s sad and it did get into me. I almost fell into my bad habits. Almost. Instead, I chose the path that I didn’t choose before. I dealt it with positivity. I very much thank God because every single time that I almost did something bad, something will happen that won’t made me do it. It wasn’t just once but many times. It’s as if a sign from the universe not to give in to temptations. And I’m very thankful for that. Thankful for the never ending support and guidance from my family and God.

Now, I feel better than I have felt in years. Not just temporary happiness that you feel when you bought a new toy and the next day you’re like meh but that peace you know is lingering inside you no matter what stroke of bad luck you may encounter. I know this may not last. Nothing is. But for now, I am choosing to embrace this and be better as long as I can. Who knows? I may be eating my words in a few months but for now I am just really happy I got to have the chance to feel light and at peace again.

Xoxo,

G

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Meet My Apprentice, Tacky Boy!

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Guys…I’m thrilled to know this person even though I haven’t met him personally. We’ve known each other since last year from a mutual friend but we just started having real conversation a few days back. I mean it’s like bam we just suddenly hit it off! We were talking about animes until he brought up blogging up until vlogging was mentioned. He is so interested in starting his own vlog he bought equipment just yesterday lol talk about impulsive buying. But he said it was one of the best decisions ever! I’m glad and super excited for him. Like oh my god. I can’t believe I never knew this guy back in college. We went to the same university, btw. He’s a lower level though, hence a baby boy!

His full name is Takehiro Fujikawa or “Tacky” for short. He migrated in Japan now with his family. But he grew up in the Philippines with his mom. I don’t know him that well, yet. Just getting there,I guess. And I can’t wait to unravel more craziness from this chibi. So, we’ve talked which cameras to buy. He decided for Sony RX100 V but unfortunately, the model wasn’t available so he settled for Canon G7x II—MY RECOMMENDATION AND CHOICE! Lol. Yeah I’m supposed to buy one too on my birthday but they don’t have it here in Naga so I’m gonna have to wait until I get my hands on it. It’s funny how the first time we talked he was like “NEVER IN MY WILDEST DREAM TO DO VLOG” but alas the saying NEVER SAY NEVER has never been true when he posted his first ever video in YouTube five days after.

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Pretty crazy, huh? Well, that’s my influence right there you folks. 😹 But damn, this kid has potential yo. He’s so randomly funny that his videos are spontaneous and full of humour. He speaks a lot of hugot in his videos and if you can’t understand Tagalog, it’s not for you. Haha. But really, he does have a talent for creating comedy content. And I hope that in the future he will get known for that. Now, go check out Tacky’s channel and don’t forget to subscribe.

P.S. He’s one of those people who give super touchy birthday message ever. I almost cried, you guys.

 

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