Experience, Friends, Happy Thoughts

Before And After Me

I used to love going out like A LOT.  And by that I meant drinking til I’m passed out drunk, going home past 12am, doing hella crazy stuff or YOLO for short. People who know me back in college can easily pinpoint me as one of those gals who is down for anything crazy and illegal. I don’t do drugs or anything major like that but more subtle things like drunk driving or anything alcohol-involved. I wasn’t always like that though…

Back before I became so open-minded and liberal-kinda, I was this geek girl who was a KPOP, JPOP, Kdrama, Jdrama, anything international-language-that-you-can’t-even-pronounce drama fan. I was this student who participated in Sudoko challenges in school. I even joined the Rubik’s cube challenge back in college with no friends to support me because my interests were too odd for them. I lost in round one though, but it didn’t matter because I felt fulfilled trying my best. I WAS THAT SIMPLE GIRL. Literally. I remember in my first year of college, I only had four or five t-shirts and two pairs of pants to wear at school. Everything I had was oversized shirts except for this one blue- striped blouse that I bought before school started. I was wearing it every week it became impossible for every single one of my block mates to have missed. How’d I know? A few years later, one of them confessed she could still draw that blouse by heart. See? I was this home-to-school school-to-home girl. But then life got in the way and decided to revamped my life. I started hanging out after class more. I learned how to wear skinny jeans. I got conscious and decided that three cups of rice per meal was more than a mortal sin. Although, I allowed it on my menstrual periods because damn girl give me some slack! Thinking about it now, I did became another person. I didn’t realize it back then because I was too preoccupied with the changes happening to me. My mom got pretty upset of what was happening and then the confused little girl inside me threw a tantrum and did bad things. You know, usual stories about good girl gone bad.

When it became too much, I begged my mom to get me out of the country. I was then in the U.S. for a year. Got what I finally wanted and learned to love myself again. I found myself beginning to return to who I was before. Even though, I couldn’t be the perfect replica of my older version I can say I have improved a lot for the better. Despite all of the hardship, I am very thankful for the lessons and experiences. I wouldn’t be me now if it weren’t for those.

But then, I came home late last year and got pretty depressed for a couple of months. Maybe because reality hit me again. My indecisive self could not keep up with things. Nowadays, I don’t hang out with my friends because I feel like I’m lagging behind them. I feel we have this friendship gap probably because I was absent for a year or I’m not in the same stage as them anymore. Also, the usual family dramas keeps on hunting me everyday. It’s sad and it did get into me. I almost fell into my bad habits. Almost. Instead, I chose the path that I didn’t choose before. I dealt it with positivity. I very much thank God because every single time that I almost did something bad, something will happen that won’t made me do it. It wasn’t just once but many times. It’s as if a sign from the universe not to give in to temptations. And I’m very thankful for that. Thankful for the never ending support and guidance from my family and God.

Now, I feel better than I have felt in years. Not just temporary happiness that you feel when you bought a new toy and the next day you’re like meh but that peace you know is lingering inside you no matter what stroke of bad luck you may encounter. I know this may not last. Nothing is. But for now, I am choosing to embrace this and be better as long as I can. Who knows? I may be eating my words in a few months but for now I am just really happy I got to have the chance to feel light and at peace again.

Xoxo,

G

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Bucket List, Chicago Diaries, Happy Thoughts, Music, Summer

Lollapalooza ’16

Last July, I attended a music festival called Lollapalooza in Grant Park, Chicago. It should be in your summer-must to do list if you’re in Chicago. Like if there’s Coachella in California, Lollapalooza is the shit here. I went with one of my intern friends, Helen. She is from Columbia and she’s just plain crazy. Like me crazy. Lol. She made sure to buy a six-pack beer to chug before going to the event. So what happened since we couldn’t possibly drink the beers on the train, we started as soon as we got off so we looked like two thirsty drunk girls walking down the streets in the middle of the day.


Man, it was not easy to get in. The line was impossible like just thinking about it now makes me cringe. It was so hot that day we had to line up for over an hour. I had no hat or no sunscreen for reapplication. But once we made it…😭😄😄😄😄😄 it was worth it. We began to explore and take pictures. It was amazing! The enormous place itself, the people and their outfits, food stalls (lol), hundreds of portable toilets and jeez I can see people smoking weed everywhere!

We hop stages to stages, not caring which and who artists we’re going. We blend in with people and dance like there’s no tomorrow. 😃 It was awkward as hell at first, of course, but then I thought this people don’t even know me so I started not to care and dance the day away! I was all about jumping, shouting, raising my hand, moving like crazy and doing all those at the same time all day it was draining. I had to buy a beer every time to keep up!

My finale was Disclosure, but Helen chose Red Hot Chili Peppers. I wish to do both and even more, but it was impossible since every stage is like a mile apart lol. So I was like, fuck it, I can do this alone and join the crowd. Good thing though this guy came out of nowhere, who also couldn’t find his friends so we both dance the night away! See? I’m proud I took a leap of faith going solo. It ain’t that bad, as it turns out.

 

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Chicago Diaries, Friends, Happy Thoughts

Blog entry:

23 June 2016 10:28PM @Staff house Springfield

Thursday night which means last night stay in Springfield! I just actually got home not too long ago. My co-workers and I went to visit another co-worker that lives here to celebrate her post baby shower. She’s a Chinese so all the food served were different kind of Chinese pica pica which was interesting. I had a good time getting to know my family here in Chicago. After that, we separated our ways–as to there are two staff houses–and here I am now. Tomorrow, I plan on taking the driver’s exam first thing in the morning–just the written exam first.  I’m doing a scan on the rules of the road of  Illinois after this entry.  So Imma say buhbye now!

Signing off!

 

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Happy Thoughts, Love

Surprise Surprise

Okay. I just received bouquet of roses, a stuffed animal in a balloon and a perfume from a guy I barely know. I was like man we’ve only been talking for less than a week you can’t be giving me stuff already and he said not to worry about it and that he can afford it anyway––🙄not a way to impress and is so beside the point––so I should just accept it. I did accept it and I think it would be rude not to. He knew I was off-limits tho like I kinda lied I have someone already mainly bc I don’t want to have to do with anything with anyone right now.

Buuuut…of course I was happy and surprised. I mean regardless of who gave what, it always leaves such a good feeling––but yeah esp when it’s from someone you truly care about. 😉

Happy Valentine’s! Gonna spend the heart’s day watching series with popcorn and Doritos by my side. Can’t wait I hope you guys have the sweetest day tom!

Mwa. xx

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Everyday, Happy Thoughts

Just had our Pre-Valentine’s lunch here at the office. We had salad, spaghetti, meatballs, cookies, chips, pizzas(as always) and sodas. Anyway, I’m not here to share my lunch experience. I’m here because somebody got this great big bouquet of  roses and everyone’s cheering and teasing. Apparently, someone anonymous sent our co-worker the flowers and now she’s got the rest of the day to think about who this mystery guy is. 🙂 Man, that must feel great. I’ll live tho. 😛

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Everyday, Experience, Happy Thoughts, Holidays, Travels

Day 1 of 366

I officially welcome 2016. Happy New Year from Chicago! I can’t stressed enough how grateful I am for 2015. I have this two great things that happened this 2015. First, I graduated from my 4 year degree course and march at the age of 19. 🙂 Second, six months after I packed my things and went to Chicago. Man, I’ve never been so happy.

No more resolutions lol it just doesn’t work for me. But I’ll try to be more positive and keep looking forward to everyday. Carpe Diem, right?

So here’s to a new year…Keep dreaming and don’t stop just because you think it’s impossible. Your actions are directed towards your dream so keep going darling cause you’re on the right track. Have a good one!

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