Category: Personal Entries πŸ™ˆ

What Is Going On?Β 

Pretending so much to be happy when I’m rotting on the inside. I don’t know what it is that I’m still asking for. I mean I already heard the good news and that alone should make me jump and scream of happiness. But no, instead I feel down. Maybe this is what they call graduation jitters. I’m scared for what’s ahead of me. I don’t see myself doing good in my life. I feel blank like uncertainty of what future holds.

Honestly though, I think I know the reason why I’m miserable at the moment. I just don’t want to admit it. But I’m fine, so much fine. So much that I could cry at any moment. I actually think there’s a lump stuck in my throat. I could be walking down the street and shed tears without any warning. I could be looking at the mirror smiling and crying at the same time yet no one will ever know it’s not tears of joy. I could look like I’m paying attention but I’m actually spacing out. Does that even sound like fine to anyone? πŸ˜‚ I’m going cray! 

I don’t want to be locked up in the house. My room isn’t exactly a therapeutic place either. I have dark orange curtains and a speaker that blares suicidal music so yeah it’s not helping. And I can’t go out at night just whenever and wherever I want. I’m not exactly a free bird. I mean I can be if I want to but the last time I did it, it was for someone and you know when someone doesn’t appreciate the risks that you do so you just stop bc you’re just human and it’s not like you’re asking something in return but a little love would be appreciated. But oh well, I’m done risking for a while. 😊

This is getting out of hand. 

I wish to disappear. 

Good night. 

Just Got Home

Hello! I’m starting to get really worried about my life here. I can’t seem to have a proper sleep every night. And all throughout the day, I resembled like a living zombie. Even now, as I’m typing this my eyes are starting to droop downwards and the weariness is now creeping inside me.  But I have to finish some things and yeah okay you may be wondering why I’m still here wasting my time instead of doing it na. I just get that feeling sometimes, you know, it makes me feel better after I’ve let my thoughts out. Even if it’s just a little comfort. πŸ˜‰ So anyway, today I had my three exams seven more to go. Hell yeah! Tomorrow another one and another for the next couple of days, I’ll be out of everyone’s way and be busy with requirements and stuff. I’m just hoping for everyone to pass this semester and be over with this. 

My eyeeees are starting to get really really…sorry cant think of anythingxto say dnow. Night*YAAAAAWN* that was the biggest yawn of my life. 

Just Droppin By!

Hello everyone! How’s life? Must be crazy, huh. Anyway, you guys must be lonely without me spewing words here and there! 😁 I know I’ve been gone far too long than necessary. But hey, I’m living a life!

So about me…Some quick update with my life. A month before my graduation and hopefully I’ll be able to join this coming March. A week before my Finals and tada I’m done with studying. Basically, my life is hell at the moment and I’m close to lose my shit. I am under pressure with my acads with all the requirements and stuff to finish before due. I’m just holding to that thought ‘konting kembot nalang’ and it will all be over. 😌 Hopefully, I get to join grad this March or else I don’t know, I might seriously breakdown if I don’t make it. Will update soon! Promise! 😘

My Favorite Lines in WRE(Love,Rosie)

“What seems tragic now won’t even be an issue in a few years time.”

“You’re only 17. You and Alex have the rest of your lives to catch up together . . . After all, soul mates always end up together.

“Things are too perfect. It almost feels like the calm before the storm.”

β€œI’m over the moon of course but you know the saying, β€œIf it ain’t broke don’t fix it.”

β€œIrreconcilable differences. Isn’t that what people always say?”

β€œIt was a million little things that all finally blew up in their faces.”

β€œAnd who needs Paris, when you can get a hug?”

β€œIf there’s any love there at all then you should work at it. Every small thing grows when you nurture it.”

β€œThe men in my life may have let me down but the little girl in my life makes up for it every single day.”

β€œIt’s nice to find a hobby, something that excites you and makes you look forward to the week ahead instead of constantly dreading days.”

β€œYou have betrayed me at a time just as I had learned to fall in love with you all over again.”

β€œLife is far from perfect, for everyone.”

β€œI’ve discovered that no one, not even the big man upstairs has the slightest clue as to what’s going on.”

β€œYou really are my moonbeamβ€”guiding the way for me all the time.”

β€œDon’t be so pessimistic. Soul mates have a way of finding their way to each other.”

β€œIt seems that every few years I’m shoveling up the pieces of my life and starting from scratch all over.”

β€œMarrying someone you don’t love is not right.”

β€œHome isn’t a place, it’s a feeling”

β€œYou can put me with a guy that’s perfect in every way and too good to be true and I’m still not ready.”

β€œIt doesn’t feel right to love the world and see such brightness when something so awful has happened”

β€œA bit of ink on her skin doesn’t tarnish the goodness or dim the brightness that shines from her”

β€œNo. I have a shit job with shit pay, a shit flat with shit rent. I have no time for shit sex with a shit man”

β€œWell I’m not with the man for conversation am I?”

β€œHere we go, in a fortnight we’ll both be free.”

β€œBecause if I don’t follow this feeling right now who nos where I will be twenty years on from now.”

β€œToday I love you more than ever; tomorrow I will love you even more. I need you more than ever; I want you more than ever”

Twinnie

Went to Tapsi Terminal last night with πŸ‘†. Actually, I was already home earlier than I was supposed to but I was out again after an hour and a half. I was already on my PJ’s but not caring at all on anything that night, I just put on my jacket and changed into some decent shorts. Thank Heavens for Twinnie. The timing couldn’t be more perfect for both of us. I just knew I had to unwind and let it out. That was one hell of a night getaway. Marks the end of something for both of us. If anyone could see our faces that night, they would’ve think someone just died close to us. Both of our eyes were puffy. πŸ‘€ Funny how we thought we were having fun that time only to end the night tragically. πŸ’πŸ™πŸ‘―

Good Bye 2014 πŸ˜πŸ˜πŸ˜πŸ˜

2014 has been one helluva roller coaster ride for me! Too many to mentioned things had happened but alas, I survived it. Thanks to those people who were there for me in my desperation times. I’d like to give you a million thanks becuase I wouldnt be what I am right now if it weren’t for your help. Thank you so much!

I love you Mom, Dad, bros, sis, friends and love ones.

I hope 2015 will be better for me and for all. Good luck to us!

I can finally close another chapter in my life. Cheers to a new year and another chance for me to get it right! πŸŽŠπŸŽ‰πŸŽ‹

I miss this πŸ˜–

Hello Readers (if there’s even any) πŸ˜’

I’m back!!!

I might have been gone for almost two months because of a certain reason. But I was still writing everyday and now that my blog is back in public, almost all those that I’ve posted these past months have turned private. 😊

I missed visiting my page and viewing my stats! πŸ˜‚ And reading posts and liking good articles 😟 and sharing my own personal rants! ☺️ But I’m happy at the same time cause I was able to attain some peace of mind. 😜 Haha alright now I’m not making any sense. 😊 Enough.

Merry Christmas to y’all! I hope you had a good one! I MISSED YA FELLAS! 😘😘😘

Let’s all welcome 2015!!!!! Just four more days. Imagine that! 😱