November 2019

Why hello there! It is a Sunday evening and I’m writing again to no one. Actually, it’s almost midnight. Ten hours before my class starts, to be exact. I guess I need to go to sleep now? Maybe after this…

So what’s new? Well, I just noticed I haven’t started editing for another YouTube video. I usually hear this screeching voice in my head saying I need to start working on another video when a week has passed after my last edit. But it’s been a month since my last upload and still nada. I am so on fire! Ha? I’m not making any sense right now.

But let me say this, I know life does not stop for anyone. But at some point in our life, it can feel like we’re at a pause or something. I guess I was on that pause phase for a while where I had to re-evaluate some important decisions in my life. It’s good once in a while to just stop and think twice about where you are in your life. 

Right now though, I’m feeling quite better. Thank you for the people around me, especially my mom who just openly listened to my doubts in life and afterward gave me life lessons and advice. That never gets old. I can never get enough of those advice from her. 

I want to say a lot of things right now…mostly about life lessons and realization. But maybe that’s for another whole new post next time. In fact, I have a lot of kwento to share. It’s crazy. I still believe everything happens for a reason and I mean it. I know we make our own fate and whatnot. But maktub, right? No matter how we think we make our own faith, when you think about maktub, everything is just thrown out the window. Okay, don’t tell me you don’t know what maktub is. Hello, The Alchemist, anyone? It means it is written. So whatever it is you think you’re doing dodging fate like that, it really how it was supposed to happen. 

You know some of these days, I would like to be able to talk in front of anyone and talk about life. Hahahaha. I don’t know! It seems like it would be really fun sharing my perspective in life and not just that but also hearing other people’s experiences. Man, this post is getting out of hand. I should stop and get my daily dose of sleep. 

I love you all. 

Glaire

familiar

There are things I’ve tried so hard to forget in the past and moved on from that are starting to knock on my door again. And here I am welcoming them with open arms. It’s not the best choice I have right now, but it’ll do for now. It’s not the best way to deal with what I’m going through, but it helps me survive the day.

My routine is becoming all too familiar once again. It’s funny when you’re in the right state of mind, some things are just so unacceptable to you. But when you’re not, you don’t even blink twice to do it.

Oh well, life.

g

Isn’t it Ironic, Don’t You Think?

I bet you sang a little when you read the title. Unless of course, you don’t know Alanis Morissette’s hit music Ironic?! The chorus goes on like “It’s like rain on your wedding day…” which is something that happens to me except it’s not my wedding day, but it’s just an ordinary day…

Today’s weather forecast was a full day rain. I lost my umbrella the other week, so I had no choice but to walk in the rain a few blocks from the station to the school. I swear I was the only one brave enough to walk in the rain without some cover. 🤷🏼‍♀️ After class, I was supposed to stay at the library for a few more hours to study for my Stat midterm, but I just wasn’t really in the mood to study for anything. I skipped that supposed study session and bravely faced another few blocks of walking in the rain to the station. I’m no Elsa but the cold and rain couldn’t bother me in any way. There was a long queue for the bus way home but good thing I was lined in front, so I still had the chance to be seated at a window seat. I just stared outside the window the entire trip thinking about things. I could never see past my window because it’s so foggy and rain won’t stop pouring outside. I couldn’t care about the view outside when my head was so full of thoughts. I guess I was too busy thinking that I missed my stop. I swear it never happened to me before. I could fell asleep in the middle of the trip but still wake up two or three stops before my stop. But this time on the bus earlier, I think I just heard my street name so faint that it took my brain to register for about 5 seconds to realize that oh shite that’s my stop. But I was too late and the bus already zoomed past my stop and I just realized like fuck I was gonna walk for blocks while raining. I was not ready for this haha. I’ve been here for almost two years and never have I ever missed my stop and when I did it’s pouring like hell. Great. I stepped out of the bus and gather my self like how the fuck am I gonna survive. I stopped in the middle of the crosswalk, took out my coat in the middle of the rain and made sure my backpack was sheltered inside my coat. I walked for what feels like an eternity. I couldn’t run. Running would do no good and I couldn’t risk slipping lol. Fuck this life was what I thought while I was walking in the rain. Isn’t it fucking ironic that it had to happen today? Is there some kind of message over this? 

I just thought maybe it’s a wake-up call to finally buy a fucking umbrella lol and finally move on to one that I lost. I did look for another umbrella the other day, but then I thought maybe I could still survive without a new one. But alas, not after this incident for sure. I guess it’s time to finally let go of whatever sentiment the lost umbrella holds and just buy a new one. 

Yeah, I’ll do that. Tomorrow, okay? ‘Cause I’m fucking tired now.

Goodnight, 

Glaire

‘Tis Nothing

I’m in the middle of editing a new video. I’m back in editing a Vancouver vlog. I’m done with my Japan vlogs, maybe the last one for now. I don’t see myself going out of the country since I’m graduating soon. That soon is six months from now, so yes I’m pretty excited about it. Despite the constant struggle in studies, but what the hell is new to that? I have been working my ass off in two jobs for the past few weeks. I’m transitioning into a new job that hopefully will be my path to a better experience in line with my studies. It’s getting quite hard juggling with this new job, nearing finals, the gloomy months ahead and thought of spending the holidays alone. But again, it is what it is. What can I do about it? I just gotta suck it up and just cry in the corner of my room in the middle of the night lol jk

To my readers, don’t ever stop finding the good in every little disappointments in life. Everything truly happens for a reason. It happens for reasons we see and we don’t see. I know it’s a little out of the topic, but this is something that I have to remind myself too. As a way, I guess, it’s something that I want myself to be reminded of when I look back at this entries I made. I feel thankful, mad, annoyed, ungrateful, happy, frustrated and all other kinds of feelings all the time. I can’t help but be lost of track from time to time, but at the end of the day, it really is how I look at the current situation and how I choose to respond to it.
Letting out a big sigh. Another day, another piece of rant/realization/random thought.

You have a good day, reader.

Nightie,
G

Not at All Stagnant

I have been working in the kitchen for almost a year and a half now. Recently, I have been working mostly in the salad section, I can’t complain though since I love the early schedule of doing the salad. I could work almost anywhere in the kitchen except for one place: sushi. Funny thing though is that’s the most thing that interests me—you know me, right?—but I could never get that shift. I guess some people—we call them the OGs—really have been working in that area for a long time now that they don’t need new people there. However, for the past 2 months, people have been quitting to the point where it messed everyone’s regular schedule. And you know what they say, things happen when you least expect them…

Brian, my former colleague, taught me how to roll sushi and pack them. It was brief, but it made me so happy. It had been so long since I felt excited in my workplace. A week after that, he quit. Then comes one day when half of the people from the kitchen called in-sick. The cook had no choice but to place me in the sushi section. I was so excited hahaha I couldn’t help smiling while rolling the sushi. First, you grab a nori sheet then grab a handful of sushi rice then spread them atop of the rice. Then, turn it over, place the crab meat, cucumber and avocados inside. Then here comes the tricky part: rolling the sushi without having anything coming out of it and shaping them with the bamboo sushi roller. But oh wait, there’s trickier than that: cutting it! 😹I had to leave that part to my senior since when I cut it, everything comes out on both ends of the roll. But yeah, I had so much fun. Now, I can make my sushi at home.

I went home feeling satisfied and I can’t help but think that it’s been so long since I learned a new thing in my workplace. I just realized I have been so comfortable with what I know now that it never occurred to me that something else could also offer me happiness. Reflecting as I walked back home, I thought of things in terms of where I stand in my life outside my work life. I’ve been preoccupied with studies—as I should be—that it’s kind of hard to see past it. But then I thought, if it was possible for me to feel excited over some simple sushi rolling, then maybe I just needed something new in my life right now. It doesn’t have to be something big but at least something that would make me flinch and say hey this thing makes me weirdly happy. 

Sometimes, we’re just too focused on doing what we know. Sure there’s no harm in doing what we’re good at and harnessing it, but sometimes there’s more to experience outside of what we already know. It’s not necessarily leaving our past and starting anew, but more of expanding that little bubble around us that we call comfort zone and growing out of it. 

 

xoxo

g e e

What Calms Me

I never know what to say in the first sentence on my post now. You often hear from me now, I know that. I’m not sorry though. If you should know, there are a lot of new things that are happening in my life now, both exciting and not. I don’t know what to say, honestly. I seldom have the urge to write on my blog now. Unlike before when at the most random moments, a topic would just pop into my head and I’d know what to write about next. It’s not that I’m not sad about it. It just means I’m prioritizing other things for now. And truth to be told, writing is something that calms me. It’s not something that I have to update all the time. This blog seems to be there for me whenever I’m feeling happy, sad, excited or just whatever. It just waits for me to write something in it.

Today, I had a hectic day. Not that I’m not used to be having such a day by now, but today is a little bit different than usual. I worked for 13 hours today and had to travel back and forth to Vancouver. I literally had to carry a little or more than 500 kg of boxes today. Meh, it’s no biggie. It’s just an ordinary Saturday for me. That, I don’t mind. But what’s really upsetting me—wow, okay I’m not that upset—is the fact that I’m mentally bothered by something. You’re getting me, right? I mean wouldn’t you say it’s more stressful if you’re dealing with something in your head than, say…I don’t know, in real life maybe? lol I didn’t know how to compare that one. You get what I mean though, right? Lifting actual shit is bearable than overthinking imaginary shit. Anyway so when I got home, I ate my dinner in a hurry and drew myself a bath. I sipped my wine and relax while watching Friends. After a while, I just listened to my fave lofi playlist and soaked into the hot water. It felt so relaxing that I was so sleepy by the time I took the shower. But by the time I was on my bed—which I am now—I knew I just had to write something on my blog.

Things don’t have to make sense right now. I just have to find a way to respond to things in a way where it can lead no harm to anybody. I know things don’t always happen to the way I wanted it to be and that I have to accept it. It’s just hard, sometimes.😢 I wish I could just turn my mind off thinking things, you know. It’s not like I don’t try to avoid overthinking, it just won’t stop popping into my head.

Nevertheless, I like sharing my thoughts here. It makes me feel a tad better knowing I’ve let it out of my chest. Thank you for taking the time to read, stranger. I hope this post finds you well. It’s all about how you respond to the negativities in your life. Life won’t be positive as it is without these negativities after all.

 

oyasumi,

gurei-san ♡

When It Starts to Hit You Hard

I’m in the middle of the summer break. Not a very long one, but still very much grateful for any kind of short break I could get these days. Besides having short hours of work, which btw means short on cash, my life on break consist mainly of me staying in, editing videos, doing the manual labor of laundry since our washing machine is not working, and lastly the occasional struggle of I-wanna-hang-out-w/-them-but-my-bed-feels-too-good. So basically, that’s what I have been up to the last seven days.

Last night, I had to force myself out of the house and join my friends on a fair called PNE at Vancouver. It basically consists of different events such as concerts, rides, and even museum for kids. We went there for a specific reason and that is to watch 98 degrees live. If you have no idea who are they, then you’re probably way too young to know them. They were widely known as a band back in the 90’s playing R&B music. But honestly, I don’t know much of their songs—I only recognized their super famous songs—because I was only born when they debuted.

So you probably know their famous song I Do (Cherish You). I actually wasn’t familiar with the title at first, but the moment I read the title, I automatically sang it in my mind. Then I thought, I know this! So this was sung by them. That was mainly the song I knew and then I have maybe two other songs that were quite familiar—but not enough for me to sing along with the crowd.

The show starts at 8:30 pm, but we got inside the PNE at 6 pm. I was shocked to see the long queue for the general admission. It’s free, so it’s a bit expected. But nevertheless, still shocked that many people would actually be attending. But hey, I was underestimating the power of older generations. No offense tho, I’m one of them. It was an open-air concert. My friends and I settled inside the concert venue an hour early and seated at the top left part of the crowd. I was observing what kind of audience were coming in: age and ethnicity wise. And I felt a sense of connection with these people because most of them were definitely older than me and I know they’ve been listening to 98 degree’s hits growing up. I may not have the same strong liking of their music, but somehow, I know I was part of that time back then. While searching the crowd, my mind was taken back to the times when some old song would play on the radio and my parents would proudly and dreamily tell us how that song reminded them of their childhood. Back then, I would just nod and smile at them like I know how they’re feeling. Now looking around at the crowd, I understood what my parents were actually talking about. I’m becoming a part of the older generations and that there are younger ones who may find the 98 degree’s coordinate dance moves a bit tacky.

The concert started and they started playing their hits—some of them I know, some of them I had no idea. But the best part was, they didn’t just sing their own songs but also sang other 90’s and early 20’s hits for us. It was so amazing and I felt very proud and nostalgic. I thought at that time, no one could enjoy this better than the ones who have been living our times. There’s so much sense of pride that washed over me that night.

When I think about it, I really am not getting any younger. There’s already a new generation after me. I’m starting to see myself in them and say, “Ha, I was not that mischievous when I was her age.” Like I can hear my mom telling me the same thing haha. It’s not our prime time anymore—not to sound too dramatic. It’s funny, you don’t ever feel like the talk of the town not after you’re not anymore.

All of these are not a bad thing, of course. It just means that life continues just like how it’s been since the beginning of the time. We do our thing in our own time and phasing. And it got me thinking about my transitioning in this life. I know I haven’t been the most decisive person ever, but I feel like it’s an accomplishment somehow that I’m thinking about my life now. It’s better late than never. Twenty-four and counting and I’m looking forward to life ahead of me. I want to live my life the way I want it to be. I feel blessed enough to have people around me who supports me financially and emotionally. Growing up, I am starting to understand people struggle in their own ways. I stopped comparing and saying such thing as, buti pa siya ganito ganyan.

I still got a long way to go in this life. Laban lang.

Love lots,

Gee

More Hurdles to Come

A lot has changed since I started my journey as an international student last 2018. I remember starting my first term with all those energy and motivation in me. I think it was a heap of strength that got mustered even before coming here in Canada. When all those prayers finally came true and I said, “Thank you. I’ll do my best from now on.” Then, my journey begins…

It all started as a slow adjusting phase for me. I started adjusting to the life of a student again. You probably know what I mean when I say getting up early, making breakfast and packing lunch—that is, if I woke up early—also, trying so hard to listen to whatever the professor is saying with blank stare like I know what’s up, going home doing home works and in my case, running straight out of my class to catch the bus because my work is in an hour. Trust me when I say it wasn’t always this hard. But I guess with every new semester, the level of the course difficulty goes high and high too. It’s been 14 months now with no long breaks, exams almost every month, non-stop work, sudden homesickness attacks, and some more unexplainable breakdowns. Yet despite the hardship, I always try and look for that little string that’ll pull me up from the mess that I am. It’s becoming a cycle of me being okay and being sad. I think I’ve always been like this. There’s no such thing as an everyday happy life. I don’t know, maybe right? I mean how could one ever appreciate happiness if he/she doesn’t feel the opposite of it?

And so with everything that’s happening to me, I think somehow I got tired of my whining—in my defense though, it was one the few ways I have to let my frustrations out of my system—and negativity in life. But anyway, it’s crazy because one day not too long ago, I was dealing with another resentment in life and I heard my inner thoughts spoke back to me. I heard me saying that life isn’t about accomplishing one thing and expecting the outcome to make me happy forever. I need to be able to accept that this is it. This is how life is supposed to be. My life is about to get busier and busier and I just have to accept how it is and get on with the flow. Things won’t get any easier if I continue to whine and get mad about it. It’s all about mind setting and prioritizing what’s important blah blah blah. But then back to reality, my positive inner thoughts don’t come very often. It’s so hard to keep myself sane when I have so much to be stressed around me. I know everyone goes through the same thing and I think as long as there’s that part of them that looks out for that little string to pull them up out of misery, that string will find them. It may not hold on to them for a very long time, but I guess it’s up to them if they’re willing to hold on and be guided.

I hope you stay strong in this life.

More hurdles to come,

Gee

Happy Birthday to Me!

Hey there! It’s my birthday! When I turned 21, I was so excited to get older because I was excited of the future. But as years passed, I want to slow down time because now I feel like I haven’t really accomplished anything yet in my life. Funny, eh?  I guess the grass is always greener on the other side. You just think…

omg okay, I can’t finish this post now. Too sleepy and drunk to continue. BABUSH! But I am thankful for this year’s birthday. I love you me, myself and I. And of course, you.

Love,

G 🙂

 

memories forever etched

It’s day 9 here at Japan. And today is especially fun. Tacky and I went to different places. First off, we accidentally ended up at Tokyo Sky Tree. We were supposed to change trains and so we went outside the station and saw that we were exactly at the foot of the tower and we get to explore the area. Then, went to Detective Conan Cafe in Shibuya. The experience was quick but memorable. We ate curry chicken that was styled as the pill 💊 Shinichi took that made him as Conan, sodas and sandwiches. Third, we went to Teamlab Planets. It was surreal as what Tacky described it. It was, indeed. A must visit in Tokyo. Then after Teamlab, it was around 6pm and Tacky decided we visit Odaiba since it was nearby. It was just a 20-minute train ride. From then on, things got so much fun. We visit Joypolis, but decided not to play since it was probably packed and we didn’t want to be exhausted. Next, we went to a mall called Diversity Tokyo Plaza where we just stroll around. And just outside its vicinity was a life-size Gundam Seed statue—or whatever you call it. Then there was this stairs full of lights. It was magical. Everything was magical. Somewhere along while walking, we passed by a shawarma mobile and ordered 2 kebab wraps. It was good and spicy and Tacky had to buy a hot tea for me because it was beginning to rain a little and I was getting cold. Tacky being a perfect gentleman gave me his coat. And so we were able to walk some more around the area and so glad we did because we stumbled a festival going on: Octoberfest. It was my first time to see Octoberfest being celebrated in the middle of April. We ordered 3 sausages and a sangria. We were having fun. At that moment, I was thinking that the day have been pretty much unplanned and that best things happened when unplanned. I couldn’t help but smiled at him and said thank you. He asked why and what for. I just replied, “Thank you for today.” He just simply smiled back knowing we were both happy and contented for the given moment. Far away from distance, the Ferris Wheel can be seen soaring up high. I wanted to ride it and Tacky agreed. It was a short walking distance, but Tacky kept on stopping on every convenience store we passed through. He was looking for something. He told me he wanted to buy this thing that will make my hands warm. He always tries his best to make me comfortable. He finally find one, but the thing failed to work. I reassured him I was feeling a little bit warm anyway. Arriving at the entrance of the ferris wheel, we were lucky there wasn’t any queues, so we instantly got in a ferris wheel. It was a 16-minute ride. The view was spectacular! We were quiet with awe and in that moment something struck me. It was the thought of leaving Japan and not being able to spend a day like this again. It was a thought my mind did not yet want to think about if possible. I got sad and just leaned on his shoulder.

On our long train ride on our way home, I was probably inches away from drooling on his shoulder which could have been super embarrassing. He still made me dinner and gave me medicine because I was feeling a little unwell. Now it’s past 1am and I know I’m sleepy already, but this day just can’t be done without being recognized, written or recorded in any way. This day might be over already, but the memories will surely stay forever. With a new day that comes means a day less before I get to leave Japan again. But it’s how life is. Regardless of anything, life goes on, right? Anyway, I guess I’ll try and have a good night sleep now. Tomorrow’s another day to make great memories. Let’s all make it count.

Love,

G

A P R I L

Hello.

Intoxicated as fuck. Okay, not that much. It’s been a crazy month or has it been almost two months now? The last time I uploaded a YT video was probably around February. People are starting to message, “When are you gonna upload your next video?” “Hey, been waiting for your video for weeks now.” Thank you for your messages. But as much as I want to squeeze editing into my schedule right now, I just can’t. It’s not that simple lol. Not for me, it isn’t. I don’t just edit for the sake of making a video ya know. I edit when I feel like it. I edit depending on my mood. That way, I’m able to make it memorable for me. I want to be able to make videos that I would want to watch a thousand times and not get tired of it.

But anyway, I wanted to write something purposeful or deeper. I just can’t get to that tone yet, so I’m babbling nonsense here. It’s been months since I last wrote, but believe me when I say there’s a bunch of times I just feel like I wanna write something but then the next second the inspiration is gone as fast as it came. Ugh, sorry about that.

Out of topic here—something that I keep on doing—but being an international student is no joke. Sure the idea of studying abroad seems grand and all, but I don’t know. Most of the times, I find myself asking myself, am I on the right track? I guess I am. But it’s easy to get lost in track when I’m all stressed and missing my family. I tend to forget why I sacrificed so much to be here. But thank goodness for the people around me, for reminding me why I’m here and for listening to my rants about school stuff and work.

I am grateful. Always. But I’m entitled to feel tired and sad. That is something you’ll always read here on my blog. That it’s okay to feel sad and cry because it is. At the end of the day, we’re all just human being who feel tired and vulnerable. But the important thing is that after I write this, I’ll feel a whole lot better and get back on track.

Grateful in January

Despite the stressful days, I had to post something and say some grateful things. This year 2019, I wrote down a couple of goals I want to achieve. I’m glad that for the first month of the year, I’ve crossed out three of those goals I’ve written. I’m truly grateful for whatever great things happened to me this first past 4 weeks of the year. To more great things and lessons in life and to crossing out the rest of my goals for 2019. Cheers!

xx

G

A Little Too Excited for a Wednesday

Hello people! I am currently at a teahouse sipping my first ever milk tea at Canada. Can you believe it? I’ve been here for almost a year and in that long period of time and I didn’t dare drink milk tea. Anyway, I’m currently on my 3rd term at my post degree studies. I have 4 subjects, which is one subject more than what I usually have in a term. And as if that’s not enough, I enrolled in a Japanese class. Yes! You read that right! I. Enrolled. Myself. At. A. Japanese. Class. AGAIN. Hahaha. This is my third time taking Japanese class in my whole life and I am excited. I’m freaking out. I came hour and a half early for my class and I still got an hour to wait. Hehe. So here I am, sitting at a teahouse trya kill time. I’ve been offered to buy a Japanese textbook that cost $75. But I said I’ll think about it. Good thing I said that because I found a free copy online. 🙂 I can’t wait. I’m so excited. Hihi. I’m really hoping to learn Japanese and be able to speak in a conversational way.

Anyway, I have my notebook in front of me. And Im about to write the hiragan and katakana just to see if I can still perfect it. 😭💕

Wish me luck!!! 💕💕💕💕

2019 Goals

Hey stranger, so I know this may seem a bit cliché. And let me tell you, it is cliché but I’m doing it anyway 🙂

1. Read More Books

Okay, so this one I need to take priority!!!! I’ve been neglecting reading for almost 2 years now. I used to love reading books. I think I still love reading books. The only difference is that I don’t find the time to read now, that’s why I’m making it a top priority for 2019 to finally get back to the reading game and finally improving my English again.

    2. Create a New Blog

Trust me when I say I’ve created multiples of blogs for myself. Maybe 5-8 already? But this time, Imma make it really legit and simple. I wanna start doing more. I wanna achieve and show more with this new website that I will make. Wait and see, I’ll make it! 🙂

    3. More Skin Care Less Make Up

Although this has been the case for years, I want to give more attention to my skin next year. I want to be able to really achieve what I want. Try to eat healthy foods and take care of my skin religiously is the way to go.

    4. EXERCISE. FOR. FUCKS. SAKE.

Come on, I need to exercise for fucks sake. I think exercise is one of the most New Year’s Resolutions of people. And even so, that’s one of mine too. Haha. Seriously, I need to get back on track. I miss MMA. I miss boxing. I miss running. Let’s not be such a lazy bum and actually do it, all right?

This my friend, believe it or not, will help me in achieving all of this things. Thoughts grow into reality, never heard of that? List what you wanna happen and trust me, you’ll be on the right track. You’re welcome! 😉

Everyday is Christmas For Me

It’s that season again where everyone gives gifts to their loved ones. And I’m not an exception to this. I gave my grandma a candle, a box of chocolate and a grocery gift card. I also got some other people gifts which I haven’t exactly had the chance to give it. I know it’s days late of Christmas already. But hey, they say every day is Christmas, right?

You’re probably wondering how my Christmas went. Well, it went exactly how my rest day usually goes. Imagine me waking up at 10 o’clock and spending the next hour browsing social media. After opening and checking every email and messages here and there, I would lay for another, let’s say, 30 minutes just thinking about how to spend the rest of my day.  Just when I thought I could lay for another 30 minutes, my tummy would scream and tell me to get my ass up and feed it. And there would I be, trudging to the kitchen and opening the fridge when I obv knew there would be nothing there for me. Hence, grabbing a banana and warming milk would be my only choice for my hungry tummy. All right, what time would it be by then? Oh right, it’d be around 2 o’clock. Time to Netflix and do some shit simultaneously. And yes, don’t worry, I still do understand what’s happening with the movie. I’m smart like that.  My mom would be calling at any time since it’d be morning in the Philippines. We’d talk for hours and while I’m still willing to talk for another lifetime, she’d be sorry and hung up ’cause papers are filing up her table and needs to finish them ASAP. No worries, I’ll just pop right back to binge-watching. And then, time for dinner. I’d draw a bath and pour Your Highness a glass of wine. I’d be blasting the sound in the bathroom and have the time of my life. After that refreshing moment, I’d fix myself and look myself in the mirror that would either result in me saying wow my skin looks nice today or yikes when would I ever love my skin. And then, pour another wine because I never settle for just a glass of something dear. I’m not satisfied like that. With my mind being poisoned by alcohol, I’d be brought in a different world where I see life as very interesting one. But of course, I told you I’m smart, right? I’d know when to stop taking drinks because I don’t wanna deal with hangover the next day. See that’s where the tricky part is every time. One has to be have a very strong will of stoping or else you’ll be a dead body walking the next day. And when I finally stop myself from drowning and realizing the bottle’s almost three quarters done, I’d close my eyes. Closing my eyes because tomorrow is another day for me to make things happen. Phew, that was some narration I did!

Anyway, just dropping by! Thanks for reading hihi!

Ja,

Glee