Category: Personal Entries 🙈

AUGUST FIRST

So much happenings this first day of the month. What a way to start August! Not to mention, this month would probably the suckiest month of the first semester. No holidays or activities whatsoever and that means no time for vacay!

So here’s what happened this day. First thing, my uncle died yesterday (Okay so not really a happening that happened for today but bitch please ✋). Second, my baby sister got hospitalized last night due to a high fever. It always happen when her birthday’s coming. Poor cute little thing has to experience it for the second time now. Third, tomorrow’s my midterms exam on my two major subjects and I haven’t even opened my notes! Fourth, my dad got drunk way faster than I did(Not a bad thing but whatever). And lastly, it’s 11:13pm (ohmy, missed 11:11 😦 ) and I’m still wide awake. Everyone’s asleep now. Worst case is I haven’t studied for my exams tomorrow. Good luck to me!

Tomorrow’s another day! Carry on, bitches.

This Is New

Oops. Late post this one.

I’ve got news to tell. A good one! I.Forgot.About.His.Birthday.

It may be a wonder to you which I think it really is. You see, there’s this guy that I liked a long long time ago and even though it didn’t work out for both of us, I still think of him occasionally. Not because I still have feelings for him, goodness gracious no. I never had that much feelings to begin with anyway. It’s just that I learned a lot from him and you know he’s been my friend too. So whenever his birthday is coming, my mind automatically starts to count down. Bwahaha! But just this year, I forgot his birthday!!! Alleluiah! That could mean something…that I was totally over him. I mean I was over him a long long time ago but you get what I mean like TOTALLY NADA.

*sigh

Originally, my plan was to blog all night. I’ve got loads of things to say and share. But as for my post earlier, you must have known I’m pissed and I still am. 😦

Fangirling

I accidentally just listened to a super sad song on my phone and got really sad. And now I can’t stop listening to it, it’s on repeat mode!

It’s a Japanese song performed by Ai Otsuka (my favorite of all time ^^) titled ‘Renai Shashin’. It was used on the movie ‘Tada Kimi Wo Aishiteru’. Mind you, the movie was sooo good and sad. Again one of my all time favorites.

Thus, fangirling mode activated.

I’m forever in love with anything about Japan. 😀

Toma Ikuta ❤ ❤ ❤
Oguri Shun ❤ ❤ ❤

I even studied Japanese language for like 2 years or less. I got to try wearing Kimono on our graduation and goodness I looked hideous. Meh. I miss my cute innocent sensei tho. *Sigh* I'm that in love with their everything. 🙂 I suddenly miss my friends there 😦

I wanna go to Japan BADLY and I'd like to go there alone. Hihi. Oh my. Just thinking about it… XD

06.17.2014

Had a great workout today! I just got home from gym anddddd I’m feeling super good. It’s been a while since my last workout…2 months ago, I think. Ha 😛 Tho desire took over me and I made my dad order a pancake at McDo for my breakfast 😛

It’s only 8am and I still got a lot of time before my first class. What to doooo? Sleep?

Hmmmm! Nomnom. Just took my first bite on my pancake and it tastes amaazing. I don’t normally eat this thing but I’m hungry and tired and I just want to sleep. 😦

I know this is out of nowhere but I just remembered that I have a diary and I have been neglecting it for three months now. Ohmyghad! 😥 How could I? But then again, I was busy with other things that were far more important than writing in my diary but still! And not to mention the fact the these past months had been life-changing moments of my life and I didn’t write it! 😦 😭😪 Just kill me now. Kinda overreacting, I know. It’s just that… 😥 😥 TOO BAD.

Now this post is going nowhere. Haha I’ve got a lot of things in my mind. Anyway…

I don’t know if my mom reads my blog. She definitely knows about this blog because I told her so. And I’m starting to regret that I did. I mean not just mom but also for those people whom I know personally. It’s just that they could open and read anything on my blog anytime and poof my secret’s gone. Tho I’m not saying they read my blog everyday but you get what I mean, right? Right?

I’m sleepy ^^’

Because I’m Bored and Sad

I was looking for someone to talk to this morning. Good thing tho, my cousin’s already awake so I called him. Haha thank you Binner for listening to my rants. And why thanks for making me cry. 😦

Spent a lot my afternoon talking to my friends. :*

First, I had to somehow talk to this girl. Haven’t heard from her voice since yesterday lol. 😀

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Then I missed ❗ my twin, Angela. Haha in yow face. Not really. I didn’t have a choice but to let you join ’cause I know you missed me already. 😛

ooVoo time

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🙂 You no there ynnah. Haha too bad! Your face’s not showing up!

Ima make you feel like a virgin again, again hahaha currently listening to the song ‘Like A Virgin Again’ 😉

Oh Bother!

Yes, you have seen it right. It’s ‘bother’ not ‘brother’. I’ve heard it said from my favorite character Pooh every time he’s irritated! ^^ Haha. I love Pooh. And please! He’s not a gender confused bear. He is a BOY and he is adorable without his undies. :))

I find it cute that Pooh makes it sound angelic instead of saying ‘you motherfucker sonofabitch’. He’s such a charmer, isn’t he? 😀 I know I know. But he’s already taken by me so back off, bitch. Nyahaha.

So enough of my rant about Pooh. Let’s get to my life now even though what I’m about to say has nothing to do with the title above. :))

Last night, I was not able to join my friends in their night out. I had a family emergency so family first as always. Also, my mom asked me to open the store for today so I slept early.

As you may already know, my summer class is officially over making this day my first legit day of summer. Yohoo! But instead of me being at my bed oversleeping, I’m wide awake and sweating in our store. And the hot temperature is kinda making me feel drowsy. I wanna take a nap even just for a minute but there’s no one to trust to with the store.

Anyway, I’ll just have to look forward to this evening and hope to God my mom won’t let me come here tomorrow ’cause she told me she’ll be giving me the Sunday off. *crossed fingers*

Since today is Saturday, so obviously tomorrow is Sunday. Lol (Even I don’t find myself a wee bit of funny.)Wait, you’re trying to be funny by that? Ughh Oh shut up MY DRY SENSE OF HUMOR IS OVERFLOWING. Sorry ’bout that. Going back, while Sunday is a rest day for most, it is the busiest day for us because it’s market day for people. So usually, me and my mom are dead tired at Sunday night. Tho it’s pretty much every night, really.

So that’s just it.

And oh wait. I feel like going out tonight with my girl friends so maybe I’ll ask my mom about it. Depends on her mood tho. Huhu.

Au Revoir biatches!! 😁😁😁

Moments Like These

Before when things were a lot easier to handle, I never understand what depression was all about. I guess you will never understand until it happens to you.

Unlike then, when somehow there was something that could compensate my sadness, I know I would be okay eventually.

But not now when troubles are ten times complicated than before. When even grand comfort could not budge a bit of my misery.

What happened?

As I have told earlier, I never understand depression. But there really came a time when I felt it in me and I swear I’ve never been lonely in my life. I remember the first time depression took over me. It was that super random moment wherein I felt that overwhelming sense of sadness.

What I did then, was that I didn’t go straight home but instead I went to this milk tea place(luckily there was no one else) and spent the rest of my allowable time before curfew thinking about things. I went home after that feeling not even the slightest okay.

And now…

I think I’m having one of these moments again. My hands are trembling as I type for no reason. My heart is pounding I think I might be actually hearing it now. I HAD to leave the house and go somewhere else. So now I’m at SM and I’m keeping myself busy as much as possible.

I haven’t discussed this matter to my mom and I don’t think I need to and I’m hoping she wouldn’t know.

It’s late now. I think I have to go back and act that everything’s alright.

Wait I’m hungry. To eat or not to eat? Damn this.

04.21.2014

Me so tired.

I went for a jog this morning after for what feels like a hundred days finally I did it again. Anyway, I woke up really early! And end up being scammed by my friend. Good thing, I still have another company. Damn him.

I went for 5 rounds in Basilica Minore with Nard. But I think he went for 6th. Glad to see around young people jogging ‘coz before majority of the joggers were elders due to obvious reason, health. But now, more than half are youth and the rest are elders. 😀

Since it’s summer and I’m currently living in a tropical country which only has two season; summer and rainy. Sunny sunny sunny… I can feel it poking past through my shirt as early as 8am! Whyyyy must you be up so early in the morning! You’re giving us all headaches and frowns to our faces.

Today is only Monday and I still have four more days to go to survive this week.

Oooooh. I forgot! A funny thing happened today, like seriously! So maybe not, but come on We had a quiz at one of my marketing subject and there was this question wherein the answer was supposedly ‘BABY BOOMER’ but instead of that my girl seatmate answered ‘BABY BONER’ (she copied and mistook it as boner). Hilarious thing, not to mention the checker of her paper was a boy and when he saw it he let loose a loud guffaw. Maybe this day is not too bad after all. 😀