As Friends or As Lovers?

In life, it’s seldom we found someone who gets us. Someone who we instantly love the moment we meet them. It’s such a rare occasion that when that certain person comes, we grab them and make sure they feel safe and loved. In most cases, people expect this to advance into some kind of romantic intimacy—which is ridiculous, really. On the other hand, it may lead to a long-life friendship. So let me throw a question, if you meet someone who really gets your vibe and interests in life, what kind of relationship would your inner-self choose to have with that someone—as a friend or a lover? It’s a tricky question, I know. The answer gets complicated the more you think about it. Ha.

My answer? I always go for friendship. But isn’t that always the case or mostly how it is for everyone? I mean, doesn’t a relationship begins at something before being lovers? And there’s nothing quite like how we, Millennials, deal with being in a ‘relationship’. There are even the so-called stages of relationship amongst 20-somethings that start out as being friends > talking stage > friends with benefits > hooking up > dating > exclusivity/to being lover. It’s one hella ride for young people to be in love, nowadays. No wonder Millennials are tagged to be the worst generation and no doubt about how older generations are laughing at us right now.

Having a fair share of my being part of the Millennial generation, I’ve experienced this roller coaster ride of being in a relationship myself. The one thing I can say is it’s just not for me. I might have done it wrong but I’ve had enough for now. I’ll choose friendship over love not because it will be the safe choice but because I’ve been there done thatrelationship thing and now I know better than to risk any good friendship with love. I’m not saying I’m all closed door for finding love but it’s not something that I am expecting to come in my life anytime soon. Setting my mind to that note, it keeps me from jumping to conclusions and expecting to find love in every guy that I meet. At the same time, without the expectations of any kind, it lets me create a deeper connection with someone I truly find interesting. It’s like I don’t have to worry about being the perfect girl because who’s judging, right? 🙂 No one but a good friend of mine.

Lovers just take it to different level, you know? Sure, there’s no doubt about how colorful our lives when they are there. No one can actually make us feel the same way that they do to us. It’s magical and how we wish it would never end. But have you had any relationship with someone that it ended badly, but then you realize you were so good together as friends than lovers, that you wish you could turn back time and just be friends instead? It’s a shame, isn’t it? Makes you regret just enough to wish for things to go back to the way you were as friends. That’s why I’ll always choose friendship over love.

Some people ask me what if you could have found your true happiness with that someone, but you settled as friends so you ended up throwing away the one shot deal? Honestly, I’m not worried. I’ve never been worried about missing my chances at being happy with someone because I know it’s not something that I could never find in myself. I produce my own sunshine and happiness. We all do! It’s on me to share it to other people. I never needed someone to make me feel whole because I am complete whether someone is holding my hand or not.

So what I need is a friend who knows me well, who’ll understand my tantrums and deal with it. Someone I can laugh with and share my stories with. A friend who I can talk whatever with no boundaries whatsoever. A friend who can be my plus one in parties and get drunk with. One who’ll ask me to a slow dance even with a pop music playing. A guy my parents can be comfortable with. Just someone who gets me. I have always believed that two opposite genders can have a platonic relationship. Being anything more than friends is just another label. What matters is the strong foundation and relationship I have with that person. If it turns out that my best friend is the one, wouldn’t that be great?! But if not, a best friend for life is not a loss love at all.

Choose carefully. And learn to love yourself.

xoxo,

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Word Prompt #1: How I Got Into It

Word Prompt #1:

How I Got Into It

It started back in my first or second year of college. I was in this computer class that required us to create a personal blog to be submitted at the end of the semester. It made me curious more than annoyed since I already had my Tumblr blog back then. I settled for WordPress as my platform and been writing ever since. It wasn’t always easy to share my thoughts. I felt shy and exposed whenever I did. But I felt the satisfaction whenever I hit the publish button. Somehow, it releases a fraction of the burden inside me. And since then, I just open and write whenever I’m being drowned by emotions. I never thought I’d made this into a money-earning blog but just a personal one where anyone close or stranger could read it just cause they’d stumble upon it.

Milk and Honey by Rupi Kaur

I saw this book recommendation in GoodReads the other day when I was searching for something worth reading and it didn’t disappoint me at all. In fact, I haven’t done a book-worth-to-post since after my reaction to Love, Rosie.

So this book is a compilation of poems about four things: the hurting, the loving, the breaking and the healing. If it kind of sounds familiar, you’re probably thinking of the works of Lang Leav. I’m a fan of both but I would say I could relate more to the work of Rupi Kaur from page one to the last one. And I like how some of the poems have their corresponding illustration which make it much deeper than it already is.

Why don’t I share with you some of my favorite poems included in Milk and Honey…

These are screenshots from my iBook. Here goes…

Right here is my favorite… 🙂

GoodReads

There is no doubt about the amount of love I have when it comes to reading books. Mostly, I read romance, sci-fi, young-adult, chick-lit and mystery. What I usually do is I read a new genre after another—it serves as a refresher to my mind. Too much romance makes my brain dizzy, same thing with sci-fi it becomes boring if I read another one—unless it’s in series. It’s like I have this on and off relationship with books which brings me to my confession about how I stopped reading for a year now and totally forgot about GoodReads Reading Challenge.

GoodReads is like a database for all the books out in the market. It’s like Yelp for books with reviews, quotes and whatnot. So whenever I’m running out of books to read, I go to their website and look up to some interesting read. My favorite part is the GoodReads Reading Challenge.

So this is done yearly, the mechanics is for you to set a goal number that you think you’ll be able to read for the entire year. And whenever you finish a book, you’ll include it in your ‘read’ section. So far my best record was last 2013. I read 41 books out of my goal of 40.

My worst record was last year. I can’t believe I just got 4 out of 20! I guess I really did forget everything else when I was in Chicago last year, eh?

But this year, I don’t have any excuses not to read so I set my goal to 10 books for 2017 challenge. I don’t want to feel overwhelmed so I’ll just have to adjust it later after I come close to my number. Good news though, as of now I have read 6 books! Not long before I adjust it to 30. Hopefully, I’ll top my best record and make it 50 this year. 🙂

Wish me luck!

xoxo,

My Favorite Lines in WRE(Love,Rosie)

“What seems tragic now won’t even be an issue in a few years time.”

“You’re only 17. You and Alex have the rest of your lives to catch up together . . . After all, soul mates always end up together.

“Things are too perfect. It almost feels like the calm before the storm.”

“I’m over the moon of course but you know the saying, “If it ain’t broke don’t fix it.”

“Irreconcilable differences. Isn’t that what people always say?”

“It was a million little things that all finally blew up in their faces.”

“And who needs Paris, when you can get a hug?”

“If there’s any love there at all then you should work at it. Every small thing grows when you nurture it.”

“The men in my life may have let me down but the little girl in my life makes up for it every single day.”

“It’s nice to find a hobby, something that excites you and makes you look forward to the week ahead instead of constantly dreading days.”

“You have betrayed me at a time just as I had learned to fall in love with you all over again.”

“Life is far from perfect, for everyone.”

“I’ve discovered that no one, not even the big man upstairs has the slightest clue as to what’s going on.”

“You really are my moonbeam—guiding the way for me all the time.”

“Don’t be so pessimistic. Soul mates have a way of finding their way to each other.”

“It seems that every few years I’m shoveling up the pieces of my life and starting from scratch all over.”

“Marrying someone you don’t love is not right.”

“Home isn’t a place, it’s a feeling”

“You can put me with a guy that’s perfect in every way and too good to be true and I’m still not ready.”

“It doesn’t feel right to love the world and see such brightness when something so awful has happened”

“A bit of ink on her skin doesn’t tarnish the goodness or dim the brightness that shines from her”

“No. I have a shit job with shit pay, a shit flat with shit rent. I have no time for shit sex with a shit man”

“Well I’m not with the man for conversation am I?”

“Here we go, in a fortnight we’ll both be free.”

“Because if I don’t follow this feeling right now who nos where I will be twenty years on from now.”

“Today I love you more than ever; tomorrow I will love you even more. I need you more than ever; I want you more than ever”

☀️Good Vibes☀️

Holiday for today! I didn’t go with my mom because I told her I’m gonna study for the finals tomorrow. 🙊 But instead of me studying, I’m preocuppied of doing unnecessary things like reading books, writing in my diary and nonstop eating! Why now?! 😭 I have three major exams tomorrow and another three on thursday and last one on next Monday and voila! SEM BREAK! Can’t wait but first I need to study to pass my subjects specially now that I’m a graduating student. 😱 Anyway, calm down people! I still need to go the gym later. Maybe my mind will start to work if I worked out my body first. Aye aye so smart of me! 😁

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I’m getting cray cray again! 🔫 Too early for me to go apeshit. 😅 SIGNING OUT!