Rainy Day On A Tuesday
😭 I love days like this.
Last day of the month of October! Time is running to fast, don’t you think so?!
Today is the start of the three non-working holiday for the celebration of All Souls and All Saints Day. There’s no other perfect way to spend the first day of this holiday with a gloomy weather. I imagine people waking up to the sound of the rain with their messy hairs and a cup of coffee in their hand. It just feels so peaceful today. I can’t describe my love for the rain.
See, I was craving for Takoyaki so I decided to bring my siblings to my favorite Takoyaki place. We drove even though it was raining cats and dogs! My brothers are headed to my dad’s place anyway, so we had to eat first and they had to drop me off again. After my craving was satisfied, I didn’t exactly plan to stay in bed and sleep the day ’cause I wanted this day to be productive sort of, so I decided to play piano and master a piece. The last piece I memorized was the song Only Hope by Mandy Moore. I remember my two brothers got interested in playing piano because of that song. Ever since, they can’t stop playing piano and now they play it better than I do. But after a while, my fingers were feeling pretty sore already so I stopped.
It is already 1pm in the afternoon and I feel like the clock is ticking so fast. Probably because I’ve been busy up until I stopped playing the piano. What to do next now? I was thinking I could redesigned my whole blog. Or I could write on my diary notebook. Or maybe just watch a movie on Netflix but that would be ruining my productive day.
Tomorrow, my family and I will be heading to my grandma’s place to celebrate the holiday. Besides, all our loved ones were buried in that place so it’s just right to be there.
It’s so nice having this kind of weather, you know! It makes me feel kinds of sentiments. Or maybe…now that I think about it, the cuddle weather has come! I wish there was someone to cuddle with. Just kidding, my Pooh bear is enough to keep me company. But yes, my favorite has finally come. The time for wearing cute sweaters, sipping coffee while reading a book, giving gifts and receiving them, gosh just thinking about all those makes me excited. I had a pretty bad Christmas last year when I just came back from the USA because of the typhoon. Hopefully this year, may I have the best one. 🙂 I’ve babbled a lot now. Rain can do that to me.
I am fat today! No seriously, I am really getting fat! I am turning myself into something I don’t ever wanna be. HAHA. Anyway, things are a little bit getting okay. Though not saying completely okay bc I know how fucked up emotions can be. One minute you’re feeling awesome and cool and the next minute you’re begging yourself to that person. Ugh, I know. Maybe I am just being too much comfortable with the situation that’s why instead of getting pretty and slim I am drawn towards the opposite. Yeah, usually when something bad happens, I observed that I try to make myself feel better by dressing up and toning my body lol shut up I am sure you guys do the same thing. But not for me this time, my god I wish the aftereffect was me being transformed into a swan goddess instead of a pig ready for butcher. 😒
Pretending so much to be happy when I’m rotting on the inside. I don’t know what it is that I’m still asking for. I mean I already heard the good news and that alone should make me jump and scream of happiness. But no, instead I feel down. Maybe this is what they call graduation jitters. I’m scared for what’s ahead of me. I don’t see myself doing good in my life. I feel blank like uncertainty of what future holds.
Honestly though, I think I know the reason why I’m miserable at the moment. I just don’t want to admit it. But I’m fine, so much fine. So much that I could cry at any moment. I actually think there’s a lump stuck in my throat. I could be walking down the street and shed tears without any warning. I could be looking at the mirror smiling and crying at the same time yet no one will ever know it’s not tears of joy. I could look like I’m paying attention but I’m actually spacing out. Does that even sound like fine to anyone? 😂 I’m going cray!
I don’t want to be locked up in the house. My room isn’t exactly a therapeutic place either. I have dark orange curtains and a speaker that blares suicidal music so yeah it’s not helping. And I can’t go out at night just whenever and wherever I want. I’m not exactly a free bird. I mean I can be if I want to but the last time I did it, it was for someone and you know when someone doesn’t appreciate the risks that you do so you just stop bc you’re just human and it’s not like you’re asking something in return but a little love would be appreciated. But oh well, I’m done risking for a while. 😊
This is getting out of hand.
I wish to disappear.
Hello Readers (if there’s even any) 😒
I might have been gone for almost two months because of a certain reason. But I was still writing everyday and now that my blog is back in public, almost all those that I’ve posted these past months have turned private. 😊
I missed visiting my page and viewing my stats! 😂 And reading posts and liking good articles 😟 and sharing my own personal rants! ☺️ But I’m happy at the same time cause I was able to attain some peace of mind. 😜 Haha alright now I’m not making any sense. 😊 Enough.
Merry Christmas to y’all! I hope you had a good one! I MISSED YA FELLAS! 😘😘😘
Let’s all welcome 2015!!!!! Just four more days. Imagine that! 😱
I accidentally just listened to a super sad song on my phone and got really sad. And now I can’t stop listening to it, it’s on repeat mode!
It’s a Japanese song performed by Ai Otsuka (my favorite of all time ^^) titled ‘Renai Shashin’. It was used on the movie ‘Tada Kimi Wo Aishiteru’. Mind you, the movie was sooo good and sad. Again one of my all time favorites.
Thus, fangirling mode activated.
I’m forever in love with anything about Japan. 😀
Toma Ikuta ❤ ❤ ❤
Oguri Shun ❤ ❤ ❤
I even studied Japanese language for like 2 years or less. I got to try wearing Kimono on our graduation and goodness I looked hideous. Meh. I miss my cute innocent sensei tho. *Sigh* I'm that in love with their everything. 🙂 I suddenly miss my friends there 😦
I wanna go to Japan BADLY and I'd like to go there alone. Hihi. Oh my. Just thinking about it… XD
These are some dramas that I have already watched this 2012
1. Rooftop Prince
A prince from the Joseon era, Lee Gak, is catapulted 300 years forward into the future in Seoul 2012 with his entourage, which includes Song Man Bo, Do Chi San and Woo Young Sul, when he tries to investigate the suspicious circumstances which surround the death of the girl he loved. In the present, he finds a girl who looks exactly like his beloved crown princess…
This drama is so funny! Must watch!
2. Love Rain
“Love Rain” depicts a 1970’s pure love and a love from the present day at the same time. It shows how the offsprings of a previous ill-fated couple, who met in the 1970s, managed to meet and fall in love. Seo In Ha and Kim Yoon Hee, a art student and a shy beauty, met and fell in love with each other during college in the 1970s but unfortunately their love was fated to never be. Now in the present 21st century Korea, Seo In Ha’s son, Seo Joon (a liberal photographer) meets and falls in with the daughter of Kim Yoon Hee, Kim Ha Na, a cheerful and energetic girl who’s personality is different from her mother’s. Will their love for each other keep them together or will they have to face the same fate as their parents?
YOOOOONA! <— she’s the main reason why I watched this drama. I love Yoona! and of course the Girls Generation! I’m a Sone. Her acting skills has improved a lot and she is very charming in the drama with all her outfits and cute expressions. (^_^)V
3. The 3rd Hospital
Sooyoung!! So far the best actress in the GG group =))
She acts cute in the drama.