I am Home! 🇵🇭

It’s been exactly two weeks…

Two weeks since I left the U.S. and arrived home. My mom and two siblings picked me up at the airport. I saw mom first and as soon as I did I cried her name not caring that we’re in the crowd! She did not change at all—same petite and small woman hugged me. We both went straight to the van waiting for us and I was greeted by my cutesy not so little sister at the door! Aww. So cute! She was standing right there with open arms while squealing mommy. I swear that was the moment that I had been waiting for so long. My brother, on the other hand, was sleeping at the back seat but was soon woken up by our noises. He looks chubby now. I guess college could really do that to anyone like it did to me. 😝

It was midnight by the time we reached at my brother’s dormitory so everyone just kind of fell asleep as soon we got settled. The next day, we left Manila and traveled to Bicol. 😁

I welcome myself to Maogmang Lugar! The town was bigger the last time I remember but now everything just looks different. It could be because of the new infrastructures and I couldn’t help but noticed there are a lot of cars! Like I mean, I am sure it wasn’t these much when I left but now it’s crazy! Imagine living in such a small town with so many cars 😓 CONGESTED TRAFFIC EVERYWHERE! Huhu

I visited my relatives and friends within the first week of my arrival and it was good to see them. 😺 Although it’s just been a year, I can say my little sister missed me the most! I spent most of my time now with her. I am her personal driver; I drop her off to school and pick her up. She just can’t be left without me by her side anymore!

My mom has been very sweet about everything. I really felt and still feel very welcome like I had been gone for so long. I feel like the son who returned in the story “The Prodigal Son”. She made sure that I have a new bed, curtains, shelves and other funny things that I don’t think are necessary 😹 Sweetest mother living on earth!

But still, I can’t wait to be back again in abroad. I just miss it, you know. I miss Chicago, my friends, Kumpi and I never though I would say this but I miss the cold weather. 🙁 And both of my parents are just supportive of me going back again and do whatever I want. This just makes me feel so blessed despite everything that’s been going on around. It’s like I have a total complete free will and all I got to do is move and decide—which I haven’t started doing yet. But like my mom said, one step at a time. After all, all I have right now is time. 

Oh well… We’ll see, won’t we? 😉

For now, I am enjoying my stay here and making the most out of it!

Adios!

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11.12.2016

You know I sometimes spend my time reading life and love quotes and finding myself falling deeply in love with the moment. Then, I would argue to myself how just reading it makes me feel amazing; how much more in real life,right? I would feel so hopeful about love at the same time so sad I’d cry. But then just right after I’m done reading all the sappy quotes, all the drama and dreamy emotions die w/ the moment too. The same feeling you get when you try to remember the dream you’ve had the other night—the more you try to chase the memory the more it goes away. That exact feeling. And somehow, it’s sad for me that I can’t even hold on to that sentiment. I feel hopeless, whenever.

Getting Ready to Say Goodbye 

I talked to a dear friend yesterday and she told me how she cannot find the words to write to which of course, I told her how I myself haven’t visited my own blog in a while. So here I am without any doubt about to ramble nonsense thoughts again.

Officially, I only have a month left in Chicago. You must be curious as to what I feel, eh? Well, I feel a lot of things! I have come to love Chicago or basically here in the United States. I have met a lot of people that changed my perspectives in life. I learned and proved to myself being independent is a good thing. Enjoying  my life without any responsibility is such a big privilege but like all other things in life, this amazing chapter has to end. So I am happy that in a short period of time, I had such a wonderful time with new found friends, family and myself. And although inevitably there are things I wish would stay permanent with me, life goes on and I could only hope for the best! It’s also funny how I miss home now more than ever. I find myself getting excited and homesick already. Looking back to my first few months, all I kept thinking was how on earth could I stay here and never go back but now…I miss home.

So, see you Philippines in a month! 😊

Happy 4th WP!

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NOTICE ME!

Today is my 4 year anniversary with WordPress and I finally decided to register a custom domain name for my site. I was kinda thinking of registering it to my name but I digressed cause I mean I’ve been with this name ‘simplicityismymiddle’ for four years now. I’m sentimental, I know lol. So that’s all for now. Just dropping by to say hello and greet myself Happy Anniversary with WordPress! 🙂

YAY!

P.S. I’ll be posting a lot of Chicago stuff soon. :p

Stealth Mode

 SHIT HAHA OKAY SO I CAME ACROSS THIS TAGALOG STORY I MADE WHEN I WAS IN MY FIRST YEAR COLLEGE WHILE I WAS CLEANING MY LAPTOP’S MEMORY . HAHA DON’T FREAKING JUDGE ME PEOPLE! YOU HAVE NO RIGHT WHATSOEVER HAHA! THIS WAS A REQUIREMENT! I HAD TO MAKE THIS!  🙈

Stealth Mode

          Mahirap nga naman kapag broken-hearted, walang nagagawang maayos, ni hindi mo maka usap ng matino. Ganito lang naman ang sitwasyon ni Jenny.

          Nag break kasi sila ng kanyang boyfriend na si Ken. Sa di sinasadyang di pagkakaintindihan na nag simula sa maliit na bagay na nag dulot ng hiwalayan.

            Mag iilang buwan na rin silang nag break. At ayon na nga, palagi na lamang naka tulala si Jenny habang hawak hawak ang kwintas na cross na binigay ni Ken para sa 5 years anniversary nila.

            Napilitan nalamang silang maging ‘normal’ na mag kaibigan dahil sa iisa lamang ang barkada nila. Naging madali naman sa kanila ang pagiging magkaibigan na lamang, hindi naman magiging maganda kung mag kakailangan sila sa harap ng barkada nila.

“Alam mo yun Maree? Yung ang sakit sakit ng nararamdaman mo? Na parang kina-cutter ang puso mo?”

Hay, eto nanaman tayo. Pabulong na sabi ng bestfriend niyang si Maree.

“Best, kasi naman baka naman mas makakabuti ng nangyari to. Malay mo may mas karapatdapat pa kesa kay Ken.”

“Siya nga ang gusto ko eh! Siya lang!”

            Paulit ulit lang nila tong pinag tatalunan, wala naman napupuntahan.

          Ngayong gabi habang nag fafacebook si Jenny, bigla nalang may nag pop-out sa babang kanto ng screen ‘skaterboss is now online’

            Biglang kinabahan si Jenny at di niya namalayan na mabilis niya nang nauubos ang kinakain niyang corn bits yung original flavor, favorite niya yun eh kasi favorite rin yun ng teacher niya sa Filipino na si Mam Raynes, yung maganda at sexy.

            Halo halong emosyon ang nararamdaman ni Jenny pero nag lakas loob parin ito at na i-pm si Kelly.

YM CONVERSATION:

simplicityismymiddlename: Hoy unggoy! Gumawa ka na ng assignment sa Filipino?

skaterboss: Unggoy ka dyan! Baboy! Haha. Meron ba? Pakopya na lang.

simplicityismymiddlename: Asa ka boooy! Di kita pakokopyahin, gumawa ka rin.

skaterboss: Tsk. Damot talaga nito. Bagay talaga sayo ang baboy! =p

simplicityismymiddlename is typing

Tse! Ikaw kaya ang bagay saakin!

OHMY! Erase erase

simplicityismymiddlename: Sama mo talaga kahit kelan!

skaterboss: *evil laugh* HAHA Sige na nga bye2 na at gagawa na ako, di mo naman ako pakokopyahin eh.

skaterboss is now offline

          Aww. Sad naman itong si Jenny at offline na si Ken. Hiling niya talaga na mag ka balikan na sila pero parang malabo na talagang mangyari yun eh. Pero pano nga naman nga ba sila mag kakabalikan kung walang gagawa ng paraan.

           Nang di namamalayan, bigla nalang nasend ni Jenny itong mga message kay Ken, tutal offline naman siya eh.

simplicityismymiddlename: Ken, mahal na mahal parin kita.

simplicityismymiddlename: Sobrang mahal, alam mo bang nalulungkot akong masyado simula ng magkahiwalay tayo hanggang ngayon.

simplicityismymiddlename: Miss na miss na miss na miss na kita.

simplicityismymiddlename: Will you still be mine?

simplicityismymiddlename: Tayo nanaman oh, si mam Raynes naiinip na.

simplicityismymiddlename: Patawad sa mga na—————

skaterboss: Ako rin Jenny, mahal parin kita. Sobrang mahal na mahal.

skaterboss: Alam mo bang parang binatohan ng paper weight ang puso ko araw araw, pati may seal ng Ateneo yung paper weight kaya mas mabigat, lalo na kapag nakikita kita at di man lang kita mahawakan.

           Nabigla naman si Jenny dahil sa hindi pala offline si Ken. Nahiya naman tuloy siya sa mga pinagsasasabi niya, pero wala na rin naman siyang magagawa, yan ang nararamdaman niya. Balak niya sanang sabihin kay Kelly na naligaw lang ang mga message na yun at di talaga para sakanya pero sa tingin niya ay di na siya makaka takas ngayon.

skateboss: Naka stealth mode lang ako, pinag mamasdan ko lang ang status mo. Namimiss kasi kita lalo kapag kachat kita.

Skaterboss: Sorry naging torpe ako.

skaterboss: Pwede ba tayo na ulit? Kahit ano pa gagawin ko. Miss na kita boss eh. Ikaw lang naman kaya ang pinakaiisang boss sa buhay ko.

skaterboss is now online

Bye Bye January

Babush January! Hello Febraury! One month down for this year but SO MUCH has happened already! 😊 I swear January only lasted for like 5 minutes to me. Many things to remember for last month. Here are some of them:

• Best time I’ve ever had with 👶
• Roadtrips and Bloopers with the best people
• Fruits and Takoyaki time with Tee
• Late night getaway in Tapsi Terminal
• Winning a bet against Busch 😏
• Experiencing first legit interview 😖
• Realizing it’s a small world afterall 😅
• Meeting Jasz + CWC + Bob Marlin
• Mind fucked moments with Tee (Bed peace!😱😂)
• Shisha sesh with them boys
• That late awkward night 😆

😆😆😆😆😆😆

Twinnie

Went to Tapsi Terminal last night with 👆. Actually, I was already home earlier than I was supposed to but I was out again after an hour and a half. I was already on my PJ’s but not caring at all on anything that night, I just put on my jacket and changed into some decent shorts. Thank Heavens for Twinnie. The timing couldn’t be more perfect for both of us. I just knew I had to unwind and let it out. That was one hell of a night getaway. Marks the end of something for both of us. If anyone could see our faces that night, they would’ve think someone just died close to us. Both of our eyes were puffy. 👀 Funny how we thought we were having fun that time only to end the night tragically. 💁🙍👯

Where Rainbows End (Love, Rosie)

My first read this 2015. Where Rainbows End by Cecilia Ahern. I totally enjoyed reading it. Like seriously in love with them Rosie and Alex. The first time I read it was when I was about to sleep and I felt so torn and connected with the Rosie I could not sleep pondering about it. I don’t know why but it felt like I was Rosie and it’s my life laid out in there and there I was reading it openly. It’s like a warning and a preview of what will become of me. I love it. Really liked the book I can’t stop complimenting. Sorry! It’s just that I haven’t read this kind of good book in a long time. 😭

Here’s one of my favorite lines that Rosie said:

Life is funny isn’t it? Just when you think you’ve got it all figured out, just when you finally begin to plan something, get excited about something, and feel like you know what direction you’re heading in, the paths change, the signs change, the wind blows the other way, north is suddenly south, and east is west, and you’re lost. It is so easy to lose your way, to lose direction. And that’s with following all the signposts

Totes recommending this book! There’s a movie adaptation to this book titled “Love, Rosie”. But first! Read it! ☺️

Not Now

So not in the mood to talk to anyone right now.

First time to spend the night here at my dad’s and I don’t like it. I never like it in here but I got no choice goddamnit! Just why the hell am I here again?! 😥 Oh yeah, my dad’s going out of town tonight so he requested that my lil sis and I to stay the night. Pfffft. Just pfffft. Pffft. Pfffft. Pfffft. Pffft.

Since my dad’s gone, it’s only the four of us here. Me and my three siblings together. It’s been what, three months now since the last time we’ve lived together? I missed them so much. Tho we see each other occasionally, it’s still sad not living together. I mean we’ve lived our whole lives together and now that we don’t… is just a sad reality.

My mom’s alone in her apartment. Tho she’s not really alone ’cause lola is living there too but I mean you know, she’s gonna sleep alone in her bed. And thinking about that is not making me feel any better.

Also, someone just told me ‘stop’. You probably won’t understand anything about this but whatever. So yeah, someone just pressed the red signal on my face and I was like okay do whatever you want. Don’t get me wrong, I totally respect the decision because I believed I’m at fault somehow since I’m so not myself today and my mood triggered that decision maybe, whatever. But what irked me, was what was said to me next. Apparently, raising the red flag was my own fault because it was really what I wanted in the first place. I wanted to retort ’cause excuse me, it wasn’t me who raised the red flag NOW, why are you telling on my face that “let’s stop ’cause it really was what you wanted”. I mean it was your decision now, why pass the blame on me when clearly it was you who made the decision. At least, when I decided to stop I made it sure it was my decision and not some ‘it was what you wanted anyway’ kind of reason. Like go fuck yourself I don’t have the energy to fight for this. Alright. Let’s stop then.

Buuuuutthenagain, breather people. I’m okay now. I just needed to let these things out of my mind. I’m okay!!!! 😀

I was pissed. Nothing GOOD comes out of anger kaya kung ano ano nasabi ko. Hurtful words are said when we get caught up in the moment. Sorry.