10.31.17

Rainy Day On A Tuesday

😭 I love days like this.

Last day of the month of October! Time is running to fast, don’t you think so?!

Today is the start of the three non-working holiday for the celebration of All Souls and All Saints Day. There’s no other perfect way to spend the first day of this holiday with a gloomy weather. I imagine people waking up to the sound of the rain with their messy hairs and a cup of coffee in their hand. It just feels so peaceful today. I can’t describe my love for the rain.

See, I was craving for Takoyaki so I decided to bring my siblings to my favorite Takoyaki place. We drove even though it was raining cats and dogs! My brothers are headed to my dad’s place anyway, so we had to eat first and they had to drop me off again. After my craving was satisfied, I didn’t exactly plan to stay in bed and sleep the day ’cause I wanted this day to be productive sort of, so I decided to play piano and master a piece. The last piece I memorized was the song Only Hope by Mandy Moore. I remember my two brothers got interested in playing piano because of that song. Ever since, they can’t stop playing piano and now they play it better than I do. But after a while, my fingers were feeling pretty sore already so I stopped.

It is already 1pm in the afternoon and I feel like the clock is ticking so fast. Probably because I’ve been busy up until I stopped playing the piano. What to do next now? I was thinking I could redesigned my whole blog. Or I could write on my diary notebook. Or maybe just watch a movie on Netflix but that would be ruining my productive day.

Tomorrow, my family and I will be heading to my grandma’s place to celebrate the holiday. Besides, all our loved ones were buried in that place so it’s just right to be there.

It’s so nice having this kind of weather, you know! It makes me feel kinds of sentiments. Or maybe…now that I think about it, the cuddle weather has come! I wish there was someone to cuddle with. Just kidding, my Pooh bear is enough to keep me company. But yes, my favorite has finally come. The time for wearing cute sweaters, sipping coffee while reading a book, giving gifts and receiving them, gosh just thinking about all those makes me excited. I had a pretty bad Christmas last year when I just came back from the USA because of the typhoon. Hopefully this year, may I have the best one. 🙂 I’ve babbled a lot now. Rain can do that to me.

Love,

G

Summer Plans

I swear. I wanted to like write a meaningful post but whenever I open my WordPress blog to write something, every idea just goes out of my mind. A little update then to tell you about my recent activities…I have done my two exams which was the GRE and IELTS. Both results were good, thank goodness or else all my late night sleeps for studying(lol who am I kidding!) would have been for nothing. As soon as the results came in, I started submitting my application for schools and so far I’m still waiting for some documents to be sent for the completion of my application. While waiting though, I do busy myself by helping my dad in his business and playing ‘salimpusa’—a friendly reference to someone joining in an activity, despite not really being a full-fledged member of the groupin his company. So yeah I figured it’s better than doing nothing.

Also, what else?

*literally took a whole minute to think*

Oh, so like last month, I already booked for two vacations for this coming summer. For April, we’re going to Boracay for a week. I guess, it’s been a really long time like almost 8 years since the last time we’ve visited and I bet the algae situation there has worsened, yuck. Not to mention, the heat that we are going to experience. Sometimes, during lunch I can barely take the heat then I remember we’re going to spend a week in the beach and I am like oh my god who’s decision is it to stay there a whole week?! For the month of May, we’re spending a 10-day vacation at South Korea which during that season is Spring so the weather is just perfect, actually. All of these trip agenda were prepared by yours truly and by that I meant the airline bookings, hotels, itineraries, budgets, visa and literally everythaaaang. Despite having those in my hands, it actually makes me really thankful that I’m busy. I can’t really afford to think of any other things right now.

Summer is coming but like my body is still in winter wonderland. It’s still hibernating that diet is not in my dictionary at the moment. Honestly, even my mom and brothers are getting real conscious because of how they eat recently. I don’t know why but it’s just too hard to watch our diet. Haha it’s funny ’cause like once in a while someone will blurt out while we’re pigging out—”I can’t keep on eating, there’s barely even months before we go to a beach”. 😹 Nevertheless, we eat and eat. 🙂 Anyho, that’s all for now. Mwa!

-GLAIRE

I am Home! 🇵🇭

It’s been exactly two weeks…

Two weeks since I left the U.S. and arrived home. My mom and two siblings picked me up at the airport. I saw mom first and as soon as I did I cried her name not caring that we’re in the crowd! She did not change at all—same petite and small woman hugged me. We both went straight to the van waiting for us and I was greeted by my cutesy not so little sister at the door! Aww. So cute! She was standing right there with open arms while squealing mommy. I swear that was the moment that I had been waiting for so long. My brother, on the other hand, was sleeping at the back seat but was soon woken up by our noises. He looks chubby now. I guess college could really do that to anyone like it did to me. 😝

It was midnight by the time we reached at my brother’s dormitory so everyone just kind of fell asleep as soon we got settled. The next day, we left Manila and traveled to Bicol. 😁

I welcome myself to Maogmang Lugar! The town was bigger the last time I remember but now everything just looks different. It could be because of the new infrastructures and I couldn’t help but noticed there are a lot of cars! Like I mean, I am sure it wasn’t these much when I left but now it’s crazy! Imagine living in such a small town with so many cars 😓 CONGESTED TRAFFIC EVERYWHERE! Huhu

I visited my relatives and friends within the first week of my arrival and it was good to see them. 😺 Although it’s just been a year, I can say my little sister missed me the most! I spent most of my time now with her. I am her personal driver; I drop her off to school and pick her up. She just can’t be left without me by her side anymore!

My mom has been very sweet about everything. I really felt and still feel very welcome like I had been gone for so long. I feel like the son who returned in the story “The Prodigal Son”. She made sure that I have a new bed, curtains, shelves and other funny things that I don’t think are necessary 😹 Sweetest mother living on earth!

But still, I can’t wait to be back again in abroad. I just miss it, you know. I miss Chicago, my friends, Kumpi and I never though I would say this but I miss the cold weather. 🙁 And both of my parents are just supportive of me going back again and do whatever I want. This just makes me feel so blessed despite everything that’s been going on around. It’s like I have a total complete free will and all I got to do is move and decide—which I haven’t started doing yet. But like my mom said, one step at a time. After all, all I have right now is time. 

Oh well… We’ll see, won’t we? 😉

For now, I am enjoying my stay here and making the most out of it!

Adios!

Stealth Mode

 SHIT HAHA OKAY SO I CAME ACROSS THIS TAGALOG STORY I MADE WHEN I WAS IN MY FIRST YEAR COLLEGE WHILE I WAS CLEANING MY LAPTOP’S MEMORY . HAHA DON’T FREAKING JUDGE ME PEOPLE! YOU HAVE NO RIGHT WHATSOEVER HAHA! THIS WAS A REQUIREMENT! I HAD TO MAKE THIS!  🙈

Stealth Mode

          Mahirap nga naman kapag broken-hearted, walang nagagawang maayos, ni hindi mo maka usap ng matino. Ganito lang naman ang sitwasyon ni Jenny.

          Nag break kasi sila ng kanyang boyfriend na si Ken. Sa di sinasadyang di pagkakaintindihan na nag simula sa maliit na bagay na nag dulot ng hiwalayan.

            Mag iilang buwan na rin silang nag break. At ayon na nga, palagi na lamang naka tulala si Jenny habang hawak hawak ang kwintas na cross na binigay ni Ken para sa 5 years anniversary nila.

            Napilitan nalamang silang maging ‘normal’ na mag kaibigan dahil sa iisa lamang ang barkada nila. Naging madali naman sa kanila ang pagiging magkaibigan na lamang, hindi naman magiging maganda kung mag kakailangan sila sa harap ng barkada nila.

“Alam mo yun Maree? Yung ang sakit sakit ng nararamdaman mo? Na parang kina-cutter ang puso mo?”

Hay, eto nanaman tayo. Pabulong na sabi ng bestfriend niyang si Maree.

“Best, kasi naman baka naman mas makakabuti ng nangyari to. Malay mo may mas karapatdapat pa kesa kay Ken.”

“Siya nga ang gusto ko eh! Siya lang!”

            Paulit ulit lang nila tong pinag tatalunan, wala naman napupuntahan.

          Ngayong gabi habang nag fafacebook si Jenny, bigla nalang may nag pop-out sa babang kanto ng screen ‘skaterboss is now online’

            Biglang kinabahan si Jenny at di niya namalayan na mabilis niya nang nauubos ang kinakain niyang corn bits yung original flavor, favorite niya yun eh kasi favorite rin yun ng teacher niya sa Filipino na si Mam Raynes, yung maganda at sexy.

            Halo halong emosyon ang nararamdaman ni Jenny pero nag lakas loob parin ito at na i-pm si Kelly.

YM CONVERSATION:

simplicityismymiddlename: Hoy unggoy! Gumawa ka na ng assignment sa Filipino?

skaterboss: Unggoy ka dyan! Baboy! Haha. Meron ba? Pakopya na lang.

simplicityismymiddlename: Asa ka boooy! Di kita pakokopyahin, gumawa ka rin.

skaterboss: Tsk. Damot talaga nito. Bagay talaga sayo ang baboy! =p

simplicityismymiddlename is typing

Tse! Ikaw kaya ang bagay saakin!

OHMY! Erase erase

simplicityismymiddlename: Sama mo talaga kahit kelan!

skaterboss: *evil laugh* HAHA Sige na nga bye2 na at gagawa na ako, di mo naman ako pakokopyahin eh.

skaterboss is now offline

          Aww. Sad naman itong si Jenny at offline na si Ken. Hiling niya talaga na mag ka balikan na sila pero parang malabo na talagang mangyari yun eh. Pero pano nga naman nga ba sila mag kakabalikan kung walang gagawa ng paraan.

           Nang di namamalayan, bigla nalang nasend ni Jenny itong mga message kay Ken, tutal offline naman siya eh.

simplicityismymiddlename: Ken, mahal na mahal parin kita.

simplicityismymiddlename: Sobrang mahal, alam mo bang nalulungkot akong masyado simula ng magkahiwalay tayo hanggang ngayon.

simplicityismymiddlename: Miss na miss na miss na miss na kita.

simplicityismymiddlename: Will you still be mine?

simplicityismymiddlename: Tayo nanaman oh, si mam Raynes naiinip na.

simplicityismymiddlename: Patawad sa mga na—————

skaterboss: Ako rin Jenny, mahal parin kita. Sobrang mahal na mahal.

skaterboss: Alam mo bang parang binatohan ng paper weight ang puso ko araw araw, pati may seal ng Ateneo yung paper weight kaya mas mabigat, lalo na kapag nakikita kita at di man lang kita mahawakan.

           Nabigla naman si Jenny dahil sa hindi pala offline si Ken. Nahiya naman tuloy siya sa mga pinagsasasabi niya, pero wala na rin naman siyang magagawa, yan ang nararamdaman niya. Balak niya sanang sabihin kay Kelly na naligaw lang ang mga message na yun at di talaga para sakanya pero sa tingin niya ay di na siya makaka takas ngayon.

skateboss: Naka stealth mode lang ako, pinag mamasdan ko lang ang status mo. Namimiss kasi kita lalo kapag kachat kita.

Skaterboss: Sorry naging torpe ako.

skaterboss: Pwede ba tayo na ulit? Kahit ano pa gagawin ko. Miss na kita boss eh. Ikaw lang naman kaya ang pinakaiisang boss sa buhay ko.

skaterboss is now online

Serene Night

Serene night? 😂 More of like freeze-to-death night. Haha here’s what I’m talking about:

9-ish pm

On our way home from a road trip(2 hour travel time), I decided to ride in the back of the pickup car. I mean I’ve always wanted to do it you know. It’s actually one in my bucketlists so I just crossed off another thing! Yay to that. So going back, I was only wearing short shorts and tee shirt no jacket whatsoever but I didn’t care and still gave it a go. I plugged in my music and enjoyed the trip.

30 mins after…

I’m loving the night sky! It’s full moon and the sky so lit up. And the wind daamn cool.

1 hour after…

Uhmm. Wait…the cold’s starting to creep up my skin. I think a blanket or whatver clothing would be much appreciated at the moment please. It’s starting to get cold!

1 1/2 hour after…
Holy shit I’m numb. I can’t feel my hands anymore! 😂 Good thing we had a stop over. My mom bought a coffee cause she was starting to get sleepy. Told her I wanted a black coffee too but it’s not available so…

At the moment…
I’m still cold af. 😂 I didnt go inside the car though. I can’t give up now I’m finishing this battle bitches. Besides! I’m kinda used to this kind of situation anyway and I totally love it. 30 mins to go before home. It’s 10:15 now and fingers are numb. How in the world can I still type these words is beyond my comprehension. 😅 I see we’re entering the city now, more cars and lights to see but no more trees and creepy shadows! I still like it more when in suburban. Damn I just wish this journey would be forever.

Time’s up. Finally home.

Not Now

So not in the mood to talk to anyone right now.

First time to spend the night here at my dad’s and I don’t like it. I never like it in here but I got no choice goddamnit! Just why the hell am I here again?! 😥 Oh yeah, my dad’s going out of town tonight so he requested that my lil sis and I to stay the night. Pfffft. Just pfffft. Pffft. Pfffft. Pfffft. Pffft.

Since my dad’s gone, it’s only the four of us here. Me and my three siblings together. It’s been what, three months now since the last time we’ve lived together? I missed them so much. Tho we see each other occasionally, it’s still sad not living together. I mean we’ve lived our whole lives together and now that we don’t… is just a sad reality.

My mom’s alone in her apartment. Tho she’s not really alone ’cause lola is living there too but I mean you know, she’s gonna sleep alone in her bed. And thinking about that is not making me feel any better.

Also, someone just told me ‘stop’. You probably won’t understand anything about this but whatever. So yeah, someone just pressed the red signal on my face and I was like okay do whatever you want. Don’t get me wrong, I totally respect the decision because I believed I’m at fault somehow since I’m so not myself today and my mood triggered that decision maybe, whatever. But what irked me, was what was said to me next. Apparently, raising the red flag was my own fault because it was really what I wanted in the first place. I wanted to retort ’cause excuse me, it wasn’t me who raised the red flag NOW, why are you telling on my face that “let’s stop ’cause it really was what you wanted”. I mean it was your decision now, why pass the blame on me when clearly it was you who made the decision. At least, when I decided to stop I made it sure it was my decision and not some ‘it was what you wanted anyway’ kind of reason. Like go fuck yourself I don’t have the energy to fight for this. Alright. Let’s stop then.

Buuuuutthenagain, breather people. I’m okay now. I just needed to let these things out of my mind. I’m okay!!!! 😀

I was pissed. Nothing GOOD comes out of anger kaya kung ano ano nasabi ko. Hurtful words are said when we get caught up in the moment. Sorry.

I Miss My Home

I want to go home already. Been staying here in Manila for two days. 😦

I’m starting to get depressed and my mood isn’t improving either. And the thought of resuming summer class in two days isn’t helping at all.

I miss my messy room. 😥

I missed the Alay Lakad yesterday.

I missed a lot.

Anyway, I’m here for a reason. I’m visiting my grandparents because of their health conditions. I know it’s important more than anything but I just can’t help but to feel down.

Cheerless Mood

I should be happy right now. Today is the graduation celebration for my cousin. 🙂 But dang I feel tired instead. I spend my whole day at our store. I should’ve been with my mom when she attended the baccalaureate mass this morning but I was on my way to our store. I had no choice but to give way to them.

Also, I woke up early this morning around 3:30 AM and checked my phone. My friend texted me that our grades were already posted. And so I checked my account and went into grades section and goddamnit I wish I could turn back the time at that moment when I saw my score because I didn’t think it was possible for me to sleep again.

With all these and that, I am hoping to be forgiven with my cheerless mood. I just couldn’t bring myself to lighten up. I just can’t, okay?

And one thing more, I think I’m starting to get attached to someone. Ghaad seriously, when will I learn?

What It Was Like Today

Merry Christmas! Hohooo! 🎅🎄🎁🎈

Another Christmas season! Another season to gift giving and sharing.

Last year, we had an exchange gift among family members. It was fun and exciting. This year, we did it again. I picked my mom’s name and I was like hell no. It’s always hard thing to pick a gift for parents. So I just bought her what she needed most this time. An iphone case charger(is that what it’s called?). The thing that’s a case and at the same time could be a charger. Anyways, she was glad when she opened my present for her. She should be. It was expensive! (Nah, kidding mom. But it really was!)

As for who picked my name, it was my younger brotha! He gave me a diary notebook. Perfect for next year. I totally forgot to buy a new one! Good thing he knows what I want.

And the same goes with everyone, we were all smiling and teasing each other’s gift. It was quite a sight for me. Everyone’s smiling and excited. Because it’s not really everyday that we’re complete around the house. Might as well as enjoy the moment!

I also made some sweets for the holiday. I learned how to make this stuff called munchbites and it was heaven! I totally nailed it. My family loves it!! ~I love you too guys. I just hoped you’re not lying for my sake. Haaa!

I love this year’s Christmas season. Hopefully, next year will be a year full of happiness and success for each and every one of us!

Loveeeeeee ya guys! Off to a good start next year!

Unpleasant Day

I’m feeling sad today. It’s like the feeling I had when I heard about the death of our former mayor Jessie Robedo, only worst.

This morning I woke up to find my dad panicking and hurrying to go outside. Just as I was about to ask, I heard the car engine roar and he’s gone. I asked my yaya what was it all about and she told me that Master Square got caught in fire. I couldn’t believe what I was hearing. I even thought she was shitting me. I mean I just woke up and that’s what I hear first thing in the morning. Uhuh not good.

If you’re wondering, Master Square is one of the remarkable establishment here in our town. It’s a supermart(?) and I’m positive almost everyone knows the place or have been already in it. The owners are family related to us so it affect us deeply.

I peeked outside the window and surely enough I saw black clouds of smoke from the distance and I’m pretty sure that’s where Master Square is located.

From what I heard, the fire started at 3am but the firefighters were so slow in corresponding that the fire got bigger which makes it harder to handle.

10:30 am and I’m on my way to my school which is just a walk away from the establishment. On my way, I saw firetrucks reloading water from the side of the streets. It’s what..7 hours then and there’s still fire?

I got a call from my dad and he told me he was with uncle (one of the owner) outside their building this morning watching the fire eat up the building. He said nothing was left even the bodega was ruined.

One of the worst feeling I think, is to see your own damn building or whatever it is that you’ve put your time and heart in be destroyed and you’re just there standing waiting for it to end because there’s nothing that you can do about it.

This is really sad. Everyone I know seems to care and it’s glad to know about it.

Anyways, who would have thought. Just last week, I bought something from MS and now…

Well everything happens for a reason, I believe. Let’s just pray for them especially for the people who just lost their jobs and the family affected.

Carry on, carry on!