Tag: fat

Fat and Sad

I am so taking back what I said yesterday about writing everyday. I’m so freaking lazy lol. Last night, I talked to mom via Skype and she was like you’re so fat already and I was like I know I should just resort to using pills lol and she was like are you crazy. Hmm should I? I kennot. HUHUHU I blame the cruel weather in this windy city! I can’t even go out without my coat. In fact now that I think about it, I haven’t gone out without layers since I came here. I just keep telling myself today that tomorrow would be the last day of the week again. I can do this. I’m homesick too. 😦 I’m thinking of visiting my country this Summer but idk I’m not sure yet. *sigh*

Fatty

I am fat today! No seriously, I am really getting fat! I am turning myself into something I don’t ever wanna be. HAHA. Anyway, things are a little bit getting okay. Though not saying completely okay bc I know how fucked up emotions can be. One minute you’re feeling awesome and cool and the next minute you’re begging yourself to that person. Ugh, I know. Maybe I am just being too much comfortable with the situation that’s why instead of getting pretty and slim I am drawn towards the opposite. Yeah, usually when something bad happens, I observed that I try to make myself feel better by dressing up and toning my body lol shut up I am sure you guys do the same thing. But not for me this time, my god I wish the aftereffect was me being transformed into a swan goddess instead of a pig ready for butcher. 😒