Moments Like These

Before when things were a lot easier to handle, I never understand what depression was all about. I guess you will never understand until it happens to you.

Unlike then, when somehow there was something that could compensate my sadness, I know I would be okay eventually.

But not now when troubles are ten times complicated than before. When even grand comfort could not budge a bit of my misery.

What happened?

As I have told earlier, I never understand depression. But there really came a time when I felt it in me and I swear I’ve never been lonely in my life. I remember the first time depression took over me. It was that super random moment wherein I felt that overwhelming sense of sadness.

What I did then, was that I didn’t go straight home but instead I went to this milk tea place(luckily there was no one else) and spent the rest of my allowable time before curfew thinking about things. I went home after that feeling not even the slightest okay.

And now…

I think I’m having one of these moments again. My hands are trembling as I type for no reason. My heart is pounding I think I might be actually hearing it now. I HAD to leave the house and go somewhere else. So now I’m at SM and I’m keeping myself busy as much as possible.

I haven’t discussed this matter to my mom and I don’t think I need to and I’m hoping she wouldn’t know.

It’s late now. I think I have to go back and act that everything’s alright.

Wait I’m hungry. To eat or not to eat? Damn this.

Suddenly You (A One Time Thing)

Ehem. So the title says it all. This post is all about romance once again my dearest readers. But not so fast as it’s just a one shot thing. Too bad, tho. 😭😭😭

Okay so here is what the fuss is all about. I have just been chatted by my high school crush on Facebook and I was like ‘Am I dreaming?!’. I seriously did a double take at the name on the screen of my phone. Caught off guarded by his sudden ‘hey’, I replied a big smiley face.

He asked whether I knew him or not and I said yes. Kyaaaaaa! ^^ So yeah, after some awkward formalities we finally started to talk comfortably and that’s when he told me something. SOMETHING I WOULDN’T SHARE TO YOU OR TO ANYONE IN THIS WORLD. That information was only for my eyes and knowledge. Like seriously!!!!!! I can’t resist a big grin on my face. Ha-ha!

And then, THAT’S IT! 😥 😅😅😅
Haha. Anyway, it definitely made my day! Out of the blue moments of my life. ^^