Everyday is Christmas For Me

It’s that season again where everyone gives gifts to their loved ones. And I’m not an exception to this. I gave my grandma a candle, a box of chocolate and a grocery gift card. I also got some other people gifts which I haven’t exactly had the chance to give it. I know it’s days late of Christmas already. But hey, they say every day is Christmas, right?

You’re probably wondering how my Christmas went. Well, it went exactly how my rest day usually goes. Imagine me waking up at 10 o’clock and spending the next hour browsing social media. After opening and checking every email and messages here and there, I would lay for another, let’s say, 30 minutes just thinking about how to spend the rest of my day. Just when I thought I could lay for another 30 minutes, my tummy would scream and tell me to get my ass up and feed it. And there would I be, trudging to the kitchen and opening the fridge when I obv knew there would be nothing there for me. Hence, grabbing a banana and warming milk would be my only choice for my hungry tummy. All right, what time would it be by then? Oh right, it’d be around 2 o’clock. Time to Netflix and do some shit simultaneously. And yes, don’t worry, I still do understand what’s happening with the movie. I’m smart like that. My mom would be calling at any time since it’d be morning in the Philippines. We’d talk for hours and while I’m still willing to talk for another lifetime, she’d be sorry and hung up ’cause papers are filing up her table and needs to finish them ASAP. No worries, I’ll just pop right back to binge-watching. And then, time for dinner. I’d draw a bath and pour Your Highness a glass of wine. I’d be blasting the sound in the bathroom and have the time of my life. After that refreshing moment, I’d fix myself and look myself in the mirror that would either result in me saying wow my skin looks nice today or yikes when would I ever love my skin. And then, pour another wine because I never settle for just a glass of something dear. I’m not satisfied like that. With my mind being poisoned by alcohol, I’d be brought in a different world where I see life as very interesting one. But of course, I told you I’m smart, right? I’d know when to stop taking drinks because I don’t wanna deal with hangover the next day. See that’s where the tricky part is every time. One has to be have a very strong will of stoping or else you’ll be a dead body walking the next day. And when I finally stop myself from drowning and realizing the bottle’s almost three quarters done, I’d close my eyes. Closing my eyes because tomorrow is another day for me to make things happen. Phew, that was some narration I did!

Anyway, just dropping by! Thanks for reading hihi!

Ja,

Glee

Thank you, 2017.

CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?! Last day of 2017. Wow. I mean, time flies so damn fast. Tomorrow, though it may not dawn on us yet that it’s 2018 already, it’s important to recognize the New Year! Make some New Year’s resolution. It’s not cliché. It’s not ridiculous to have NY’s resolution. In fact, it’s one of the ways to show that we are ready for a new beginning and we are ready to move forward with a positive attitude. I used to think that making a resolution for the New Year is absurd because, let’s face it, no one actually make it to the second day of a new year without violating something on their lists. 😂 But now, I’ve realize that it’s not about just the simple repetitive list that we make. More importantly, it’s about having the right mind setting as we enter into a new year. I know we have all the time to do whatever it is to change whenever we want to, but this is the chance especially for those who hasn’t begun in their make-over journey. Having the list as your guide will help you stay in line for your focus and goals throughout the year. If you don’t agree, then I understand. You must be going through something to even care about waking up let alone having a NY’s resolution. I’ve been there so I know.

But anyway, if you were to sum up this year into one sentence, what would it be?

I bet you’re all like This year has been such a rollercoaster of events and emotions or I’m just glad year is over or something like what I would go for this year like This year has been a salvation year for me.

I had the rollercoaster type of answer for years wherein I was thankful despite the majority shitness throughout every year. I remember struggling to feel okay and see the light despite the shady things in my life then. But not this time.

On January, a month since I came home, I was feeling lonely more than happy to be back. I didn’t have a work and I was missing my life in Chicago. Basically, I was still adjusting to everything.

On March, I decided to pursue my application to universities. I wanted to have A life back in order. I let myself be sad. I let myself cry. I let myself loath. But I also told myself that there’s an end to this.

On June, I turned 22. Also on my birthday was my last day to drink alcohol. Been sober ever since.

On July, the month that completely changes me. Here’s the month I started healing and the month I started to get sick. Just when I started getting rid of toxins and bad habits both in my body and mind, I was diagnosed with a sickness. A semi-major sickness, just to categorized. By that time, I had already got in and enrolled for the Spring 2018 but since I was sick, I had no choice but to defer.

On September, I was getting better. Thanks for the help of the people who cares about me.

On November, easy come easy go seemed to be the highlighted quote of the month.

On December, here I am. Still fighting and hoping and breathing and everything! I am happy. When one goes, comes a better one. Now, that’s a better quote I have than the last month.

Thank you, 2017. Thank you for hurting me, loving me, teaching me a lesson, abandoning me. You made me nothing but stronger this year. I am so happy that finally some part of me is back in piece with myself. This year was not much but staying home but the lessons I learned, the development I’ve gained were much more than the year I had when I was being productive.

This is my last message for the year. I’ll be seeing you, next year!

Ja ne,

Gureru

Merry Christmas 🎄

Merry Christmas! Honestly, this day couldn’t get any more ordinary than our usual day. But it’s nice to be alive and feel the magic in the air where people who you haven’t talked in a while drops a greeting on your Messenger, ampao from Santa Claus and foods at Noche Buena that are quite enough to last for a month. Not much any positivity to share right now. So you guys have a merry christmas and enjoy the holidays with the fambam.

xoxo,

happy kiddo ^__^

I’m proud and earning. LOL. It’s not much but it’s definitely making me want to wake up early every morning. It’s like, finally! Looking forward to a work that I definitely enjoy. Hehe. I’m a blessed kid. I just am.

I can’t wait to see my brother later. He’s coming home with us to celebrate the holidays. I can feel mother’s excitement this far.

Alrighty. Talk to you guys tomorrow.

❤

‘Tis The Season For Love ❤

5 more days until the hanging of stockings. I wish my Santa won’t be cheap this year. Hahaha I am just dropping by. I decided that I will be leaving a little realization every day until Christmas to talk about my learnings or just what I feel about. Also, taking a little bit break from all the work and stuff.

With the recent events, I’ve never been happy, motivated and excited in a very long time. I just wish that everyone is feeling the same thing that I do especially it’s Christmas season. No matter how cliché that sounds, ’tis the season for love, and we should all try to at least be happy and welcome the New Year with a good vibe. I know I wouldn’t have said it 3 years ago when I was feeling miserable and empty, but now I’m just very grateful it happened. It wasn’t exactly what I had been picturing when I was a kid on how I would be as an adult. It’s true, it has been a little bit bumpy on my journey—hell, most of the times, I was and still am just confused as to whether take a left or right—but no one ever claimed that life is a no-brainer. So there you go. I’m clinging to life as much as possible and making the most out of it. Haha I mean, I don’t know about making the most out of it for now. But I am at peace—at the moment, I guess—and I know a lot of people don’t have that, so I’m thankful.

Arigatou.

Ho Ho Ho,

C H I C A G O

Ever wonder what I am doing here in Chicago? No, we don’t ca—...okay 😒 I’m telling this for those who care and don’t just bc I like to annoy the hell outta you. 😛 Well, I am here for my internship. Ever since I graduated college, I had been aiming for this opportunity. I applied then and I waited like it was the most frustrating waiting game ever. There was not a day where I don’t check up on my status. Until, they finally found a company fit for my degree. I was placed in an accounting firm in downtown Chicago—long live the city! The city is amazing. The weather is extreme here and it wasn’t called the Windy City for nothing. I couldn’t go out without my coat wrapped closely around my body and my hands shoved in my pocket. Did I mention it’s snowing in Chicago? Because oh my god the first time I experienced snow, I totally and literally jumped out of joy. It happened on my way home with my roommate—she’s annoying btw and she knows it 😉—and I didn’t see it coming because it was dark and I thought it was just raining but then I felt there was this tingling sensation every time it hit my skin. That’s when Sheena(roomie) screamed it was snowing. We both squirmed loudly like a little girl! We got lost on our way home and we were freezing cold but damn it’s snowing who cares. 🙂 Also, it’s so cold in here I dont sweat at all. Lol maybe that’s the reason why I already gained 10 pounds since I came here. Sheena and I enrolled in gym but seriously waking up shivering from cold isn’t exactly motivating so nah pig life it is. So far, I am liking it in here. I get to see and meet different kind of people. I see people with rainbow hair and gothic attires and nobody bats an eye. Lmao If it were in my country, he/she is gonna be a mile radius head turner. It’s just so fun in here really, I barely even feel the days passing turning them into a month already.

What It Was Like Today

Merry Christmas! Hohooo! 🎅🎄🎁🎈

Another Christmas season! Another season to gift giving and sharing.

Last year, we had an exchange gift among family members. It was fun and exciting. This year, we did it again. I picked my mom’s name and I was like hell no. It’s always hard thing to pick a gift for parents. So I just bought her what she needed most this time. An iphone case charger(is that what it’s called?). The thing that’s a case and at the same time could be a charger. Anyways, she was glad when she opened my present for her. She should be. It was expensive! (Nah, kidding mom. ~~But it really was!~~)

As for who picked my name, it was my younger brotha! He gave me a diary notebook. Perfect for next year. I totally forgot to buy a new one! Good thing he knows what I want.

And the same goes with everyone, we were all smiling and teasing each other’s gift. It was quite a sight for me. Everyone’s smiling and excited. Because it’s not really everyday that we’re complete around the house. Might as well as enjoy the moment!

I also made some sweets for the holiday. I learned how to make this stuff called munchbites and it was heaven! I totally nailed it. My family loves it!! ~I love you too guys. I just hoped you’re not lying for my sake. Haaa!

I love this year’s Christmas season. Hopefully, next year will be a year full of happiness and success for each and every one of us!

Loveeeeeee ya guys! Off to a good start next year!