Thank you, 2017.

CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?! Last day of 2017. Wow. I mean, time flies so damn fast. Tomorrow, though it may not dawn on us yet that it’s 2018 already, it’s important to recognize the New Year! Make some New Year’s resolution. It’s not cliché. It’s not ridiculous to have NY’s resolution. In fact, it’s one of the ways to show that we are ready for a new beginning and we are ready to move forward with a positive attitude. I used to think that making a resolution for the New Year is absurd because, let’s face it, no one actually make it to the second day of a new year without violating something on their lists. 😂 But now, I’ve realize that it’s not about just the simple repetitive list that we make. More importantly, it’s about having the right mind setting as we enter into a new year. I know we have all the time to do whatever it is to change whenever we want to, but this is the chance especially for those who hasn’t begun in their make-over journey. Having the list as your guide will help you stay in line for your focus and goals throughout the year. If you don’t agree, then I understand. You must be going through something to even care about waking up let alone having a NY’s resolution. I’ve been there so I know.

But anyway, if you were to sum up this year into one sentence, what would it be?

I bet you’re all like This year has been such a rollercoaster of events and emotions or I’m just glad year is over or something like what I would go for this year like This year has been a salvation year for me.

I had the rollercoaster type of answer for years wherein I was thankful despite the majority shitness throughout every year. I remember struggling to feel okay and see the light despite the shady things in my life then. But not this time.

On January, a month since I came home, I was feeling lonely more than happy to be back.  I didn’t have a work and I was missing my life in Chicago. Basically, I was still adjusting to everything.

On March, I decided to pursue my application to universities. I wanted to have A life back in order. I let myself be sad. I let myself cry. I let myself loath. But I also told myself that there’s an end to this.

On June, I turned 22. Also on my birthday was my last day to drink alcohol. Been sober ever since.

On July, the month that completely changes me. Here’s the month I started healing and the month I started to get sick. Just when I started getting rid of toxins and bad habits both in my body and mind, I was diagnosed with a sickness. A semi-major sickness, just to categorized. By that time, I had already got in and enrolled for the Spring 2018 but since I was sick, I had no choice but to defer.

On September, I was getting better. Thanks for the help of the people who cares about me.

On November, easy come easy go seemed to be the highlighted quote of the month.

On December, here I am. Still fighting and hoping and breathing and everything! I am happy. When one goes, comes a better one. Now, that’s a better quote I have than the last month.

Thank you, 2017. Thank you for hurting me, loving me, teaching me a lesson, abandoning me. You made me nothing but stronger this year. I am so happy that finally some part of me is back in piece with myself. This year was not much but staying home but the lessons I learned, the development I’ve gained were much more than the year I had when I was being productive.

This is my last message for the year. I’ll be seeing you, next year!

Ja ne,

Gureru