Tag: writing

10.31.17

Rainy Day On A Tuesday

😭 I love days like this.

Last day of the month of October! Time is running to fast, don’t you think so?!

Today is the start of the three non-working holiday for the celebration of All Souls and All Saints Day. There’s no other perfect way to spend the first day of this holiday with a gloomy weather. I imagine people waking up to the sound of the rain with their messy hairs and a cup of coffee in their hand. It just feels so peaceful today. I can’t describe my love for the rain.

See, I was craving for Takoyaki so I decided to bring my siblings to my favorite Takoyaki place. We drove even though it was raining cats and dogs! My brothers are headed to my dad’s place anyway, so we had to eat first and they had to drop me off again. After my craving was satisfied, I didn’t exactly plan to stay in bed and sleep the day ’cause I wanted this day to be productive sort of, so I decided to play piano and master a piece. The last piece I memorized was the song Only Hope by Mandy Moore. I remember my two brothers got interested in playing piano because of that song. Ever since, they can’t stop playing piano and now they play it better than I do. But after a while, my fingers were feeling pretty sore already so I stopped.

It is already 1pm in the afternoon and I feel like the clock is ticking so fast. Probably because I’ve been busy up until I stopped playing the piano. What to do next now? I was thinking I could redesigned my whole blog. Or I could write on my diary notebook. Or maybe just watch a movie on Netflix but that would be ruining my productive day.

Tomorrow, my family and I will be heading to my grandma’s place to celebrate the holiday. Besides, all our loved ones were buried in that place so it’s just right to be there.

It’s so nice having this kind of weather, you know! It makes me feel kinds of sentiments. Or maybe…now that I think about it, the cuddle weather has come! I wish there was someone to cuddle with. Just kidding, my Pooh bear is enough to keep me company. But yes, my favorite has finally come. The time for wearing cute sweaters, sipping coffee while reading a book, giving gifts and receiving them, gosh just thinking about all those makes me excited. I had a pretty bad Christmas last year when I just came back from the USA because of the typhoon. Hopefully this year, may I have the best one. 🙂 I’ve babbled a lot now. Rain can do that to me.

Love,

G

As Friends or As Lovers?

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In life, it’s seldom we found someone who gets us. Someone who we instantly love the moment we meet them. It’s such a rare occasion that when that certain person comes, we grab them and make sure they feel safe and loved. In most cases, people expect this to advance into some kind of romantic intimacy—which is ridiculous, really. On the other hand, it may lead to a long-life friendship. So let me throw a question, if you meet someone who really gets your vibe and interests in life, what kind of relationship would your inner-self choose to have with that someone—as a friend or a lover? It’s a tricky question, I know. The answer gets complicated the more you think about it. Ha.

My answer? I always go for friendship. But isn’t that always the case or mostly how it is for everyone? I mean, doesn’t a relationship begins at something before being lovers? And there’s nothing quite like how we, Millennials, deal with being in a ‘relationship’. There are even the so-called stages of relationship amongst 20-somethings that start out as being friends > talking stage > friends with benefits > hooking up > dating > exclusivity/to being lover. It’s one hella ride  for young people to be in love, nowadays. No wonder Millennials are tagged to be the worst generation and no doubt about how older generations are laughing at us right now.

Having a fair share of my being part of the Millennial generation, I’ve experienced this roller coaster ride of being in a relationship myself. The one thing I can say is it’s just not for me. I might have done it wrong but I’ve had enough for now. I’ll choose friendship over love not because it will be the safe choice but because I’ve been there done thatrelationship thing and now I know better than to risk any good friendship with love. I’m not saying I’m all closed door for finding love but it’s not something that I am expecting to come in my life anytime soon. Setting my mind to that note, it keeps me from jumping to conclusions and expecting to find love in every guy that I meet. At the same time, without the expectations of any kind, it lets me create a deeper connection with someone I truly find interesting. It’s like I don’t have to worry about being the perfect girl because who’s judging, right? 🙂 No one but a good friend of mine.

Lovers just take it to different level, you know? Sure, there’s no doubt about how colorful our lives when they are there. No one can actually make us feel the same way that they do to us. It’s magical and how we wish it would never end. But have you had any relationship with someone that it ended badly, but then you realize you were so good together as friends than lovers, that you wish you could turn back time and just be friends instead? It’s a shame, isn’t it? Makes you regret just enough to wish for things to go back to the way you were as friends. That’s why I’ll always choose friendship over love.

Some people ask me what if you could have found your true happiness with that someone, but you settled as friends so you ended up throwing away the one shot deal? Honestly, I’m not worried. I’ve never been worried about missing my chances at being happy with someone because I know it’s not something that I could never find in myself. I produce my own sunshine and happiness. We all do! It’s on me to share it to other people. I never needed someone to make me feel whole because I am complete whether someone is holding my hand or not.

So what I need is a friend who knows me well, who’ll understand my tantrums and deal with it. Someone I can laugh with and share my stories with. A friend who I can talk whatever with no boundaries whatsoever. A friend who can be my plus one in parties and get drunk with. One who’ll ask me to a slow dance even with a pop music playing. A guy my parents can be comfortable with. Just someone who gets me. I have always believed that two opposite genders can have a platonic relationship. Being anything more than friends is just another label. What matters is the strong foundation and relationship I have with that person. If it turns out that my best friend is the one, wouldn’t that be great?! But if not, a best friend for life is not a loss love at all.

Choose carefully. And learn to love yourself.

xoxo,

G

Word Prompt #7 Best Achievement

Word Prompt #7:

Best Achievement 🏆

I DON’T HAVE ANY BEST ACHIEVEMENT. LOL okay what can I talk about here…I guess the fact the I had traveled and visited great states in the United States while working on my own was something that I am proud of. For a year, it was like I was having my gap year. I was working, learning and earning! Now, I’m off to another adventure and hopefully the beginning of my career. I’ll be sharing my next agenda in a few months. 🙂

 

Word Prompt #4: Fave Fictional Character

Word Prompt #4:

Fave Fictional Character

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I would definitely say KUDO SHINICHI. My ultimate prince that I’d marry him with no question if ever he becomes a TRUE HUMAN BEING. Huhuhu. He came from an anime series titled “Detective Conan” which is all about a young high school detective being the prodigy in solving whatever kind of cases but his body got shrunk due one night due to spying drug dealers and ever since he’s been solving cases through a body of a kid. HE FREAKING MADE ME WANT TO BE A DETECTIVE. I love you, Conan.

Word Prompt #3: What I Do Best

Word Prompt #3:

What I Do Best

I don’t know if I can ever answer that specifically. But just last week, I was talking to Tacky about our individual talents. And he went about how I can inspire people without being aware of it. I honestly don’t see myself inspiring other people because I don’t even know inspires me let alone inspire people, right? But I’m glad that he thinks I’m capable of being that kind of person that helps other people inspire and realize things.

Word Prompt #1: How I Got Into It

Word Prompt #1:

How I Got Into It

It started back in my first or second year of college. I was in this computer class that required us to create a personal blog to be submitted at the end of the semester. It made me curious more than annoyed since I already had my Tumblr blog back then. I settled for WordPress as my platform and been writing ever since. It wasn’t always easy to share my thoughts. I felt shy and exposed whenever I did. But I felt the satisfaction whenever I hit the publish button. Somehow, it releases a fraction of the burden inside me. And since then, I just open and write whenever I’m being drowned by emotions. I never thought I’d made this into a money-earning blog but just a personal one where anyone close or stranger could read it just cause they’d stumble upon it.

Loud Mind of Mine

My cute ass was dragged all weekday for IELTS review last week, and as if that weren’t enough, I had to speak in front of everyone every damn day. It was the speaking module week, that’s why. I just got so nervous without any warning and I usually can’t speak straight when I’m scared! I kept trying to shake off the uneasiness by thinking about funny or good memories but it was no help. Really, the more I tried the more it worsened.

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Just earlier, I asked a friend a question that resulted to a misunderstanding between us. What happened was that friend replied something stupid to my question making me feel like a fool. And now I’m hurt that’s why, I’m drawing away my attention to anything that won’t trigger my mind to remember the incident.

So today I find myself asking what is a good distraction from things I don’t want to think?

After a thought…

All I can think about is I’m crazy to assume that any diversion would work. I realize I probably just have to face it head-on and give myself a break. Well, how about just speaking freely not caring about possible mistakes or just letting myself stutter until I can finally fucking deliver it clearly? Like why worry about that friend when I know it wouldn’t be a freakin’ lost if I lose that one person? I mean just do your thing and stop worrying, self.

It makes sense, right? I can’t worry about everything all at once. There’s just so much to do and only hours in a day. Just one fucking thing at a time. If certain fate is meant to be yours, then what’s the rush? I know it is easier to say and realize all of these things than actually doing and applying it in life. But I think when you know what’s going on, you’ll actually find a way to make it right—well, at least you’ve made you’re first step to the lifeline.

C H I C A G O

Ever wonder what I am doing here in Chicago? No, we don’t ca—...okay 😒 I’m telling this for those who care and don’t just bc I like to annoy the hell outta you. 😛 Well, I am here for my internship. Ever since I graduated college, I had been aiming for this opportunity. I applied then and I waited like it was the most frustrating waiting game ever. There was not a day where I don’t check up on my status. Until, they finally found a company fit for my degree. I was placed in an accounting firm in downtown Chicago—long live the city! The city is amazing. The weather is extreme here and it wasn’t called the Windy City for nothing. I couldn’t go out without my coat wrapped closely around my body and my hands shoved in my pocket. Did I mention it’s snowing in Chicago? Because oh my god the first time I experienced snow, I totally and literally jumped out of joy. It happened on my way home with my roommate—she’s annoying btw and she knows it 😉—and I didn’t see it coming because it was dark and I thought it was just raining but then I felt there was this tingling sensation every time it hit my skin. That’s when Sheena(roomie) screamed it was snowing. We both squirmed loudly like a little girl! We got lost on our way home and we were freezing cold but damn it’s snowing who cares. 🙂 Also, it’s so cold in here I dont sweat at all. Lol maybe that’s the reason why I already gained 10 pounds since I came here. Sheena and I enrolled in gym but seriously waking up shivering from cold isn’t exactly motivating so nah pig life it is. So far, I am liking it in here. I get to see and meet different kind of people. I see people with rainbow hair and gothic attires and nobody bats an eye. Lmao If it were in my country, he/she is gonna be a mile radius head turner. It’s just so fun in here really, I barely even feel the days passing turning them into a month already.

AUGUST FIRST

So much happenings this first day of the month. What a way to start August! Not to mention, this month would probably the suckiest month of the first semester. No holidays or activities whatsoever and that means no time for vacay!

So here’s what happened this day. First thing, my uncle died yesterday (Okay so not really a happening that happened for today but bitch please ✋). Second, my baby sister got hospitalized last night due to a high fever. It always happen when her birthday’s coming. Poor cute little thing has to experience it for the second time now. Third, tomorrow’s my midterms exam on my two major subjects and I haven’t even opened my notes! Fourth, my dad got drunk way faster than I did(Not a bad thing but whatever). And lastly, it’s 11:13pm (ohmy, missed 11:11 😦 ) and I’m still wide awake. Everyone’s asleep now. Worst case is I haven’t studied for my exams tomorrow. Good luck to me!

Tomorrow’s another day! Carry on, bitches.

I Think I Am In Friend-Love With You

I’ve been wanting to tell this to my friend. That I am in friend-love with him. But I’ve lost my chance not too long ago. Things kind of got weird between us and I don’t want to add more confusion to what we are already having. I guess things could never be back to normal between us.

Read this web comic by Yumi Sakugawa:
http://www.sadiemagazine.com/issue-no-11/arts-letters/comic/i-think-i-am-in-friend-love-with-you

Happy Chinese New Year!!

At least, let me start off by greeting you a Happy Chinese New Year in chinese:

“Gong Xi Fa Cai!!” (Wishing you to be prosperous in the coming year)

And a fun way to respond to that one:

“Hong Bao Na Lai. ^^” (Red envelope please!)

Another way of saying Happy Chinese New Year is:

“XIN NIAN KUAI LE!” (新年快樂) which quite literally means Happy New Year.

Xin Nian (新年) is New Year. Xin is new and Nian is year.
Kuai le (快樂) is happiness, joy, delight, or rejoicings.

So it’s like ‘New Year Happy’ in Chinese when you literally translate it. 😀

Anyways, have fun today (Hell yeah, coz it’s holiday today!!). Wear lucky stuff and anything that could fight off bad spirits and luck! Listen to feng shui and live a prosperous year. Duuh, tho even I have doubts in those things. But whatever, there’s no harm in trying. Good luck!