10.31.17

Rainy Day On A Tuesday

😭 I love days like this.

Last day of the month of October! Time is running to fast, don’t you think so?!

Today is the start of the three non-working holiday for the celebration of All Souls and All Saints Day. There’s no other perfect way to spend the first day of this holiday with a gloomy weather. I imagine people waking up to the sound of the rain with their messy hairs and a cup of coffee in their hand. It just feels so peaceful today. I can’t describe my love for the rain.

See, I was craving for Takoyaki so I decided to bring my siblings to my favorite Takoyaki place. We drove even though it was raining cats and dogs! My brothers are headed to my dad’s place anyway, so we had to eat first and they had to drop me off again. After my craving was satisfied, I didn’t exactly plan to stay in bed and sleep the day ’cause I wanted this day to be productive sort of, so I decided to play piano and master a piece. The last piece I memorized was the song Only Hope by Mandy Moore. I remember my two brothers got interested in playing piano because of that song. Ever since, they can’t stop playing piano and now they play it better than I do. But after a while, my fingers were feeling pretty sore already so I stopped.

It is already 1pm in the afternoon and I feel like the clock is ticking so fast. Probably because I’ve been busy up until I stopped playing the piano. What to do next now? I was thinking I could redesigned my whole blog. Or I could write on my diary notebook. Or maybe just watch a movie on Netflix but that would be ruining my productive day.

Tomorrow, my family and I will be heading to my grandma’s place to celebrate the holiday. Besides, all our loved ones were buried in that place so it’s just right to be there.

It’s so nice having this kind of weather, you know! It makes me feel kinds of sentiments. Or maybe…now that I think about it, the cuddle weather has come! I wish there was someone to cuddle with. Just kidding, my Pooh bear is enough to keep me company. But yes, my favorite has finally come. The time for wearing cute sweaters, sipping coffee while reading a book, giving gifts and receiving them, gosh just thinking about all those makes me excited. I had a pretty bad Christmas last year when I just came back from the USA because of the typhoon. Hopefully this year, may I have the best one. 🙂 I’ve babbled a lot now. Rain can do that to me.

Love,

G

As Friends or As Lovers?

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In life, it’s seldom we found someone who gets us. Someone who we instantly love the moment we meet them. It’s such a rare occasion that when that certain person comes, we grab them and make sure they feel safe and loved. In most cases, people expect this to advance into some kind of romantic intimacy—which is ridiculous, really. On the other hand, it may lead to a long-life friendship. So let me throw a question, if you meet someone who really gets your vibe and interests in life, what kind of relationship would your inner-self choose to have with that someone—as a friend or a lover? It’s a tricky question, I know. The answer gets complicated the more you think about it. Ha.

My answer? I always go for friendship. But isn’t that always the case or mostly how it is for everyone? I mean, doesn’t a relationship begins at something before being lovers? And there’s nothing quite like how we, Millennials, deal with being in a ‘relationship’. There are even the so-called stages of relationship amongst 20-somethings that start out as being friends > talking stage > friends with benefits > hooking up > dating > exclusivity/to being lover. It’s one hella ride  for young people to be in love, nowadays. No wonder Millennials are tagged to be the worst generation and no doubt about how older generations are laughing at us right now.

Having a fair share of my being part of the Millennial generation, I’ve experienced this roller coaster ride of being in a relationship myself. The one thing I can say is it’s just not for me. I might have done it wrong but I’ve had enough for now. I’ll choose friendship over love not because it will be the safe choice but because I’ve been there done thatrelationship thing and now I know better than to risk any good friendship with love. I’m not saying I’m all closed door for finding love but it’s not something that I am expecting to come in my life anytime soon. Setting my mind to that note, it keeps me from jumping to conclusions and expecting to find love in every guy that I meet. At the same time, without the expectations of any kind, it lets me create a deeper connection with someone I truly find interesting. It’s like I don’t have to worry about being the perfect girl because who’s judging, right? 🙂 No one but a good friend of mine.

Lovers just take it to different level, you know? Sure, there’s no doubt about how colorful our lives when they are there. No one can actually make us feel the same way that they do to us. It’s magical and how we wish it would never end. But have you had any relationship with someone that it ended badly, but then you realize you were so good together as friends than lovers, that you wish you could turn back time and just be friends instead? It’s a shame, isn’t it? Makes you regret just enough to wish for things to go back to the way you were as friends. That’s why I’ll always choose friendship over love.

Some people ask me what if you could have found your true happiness with that someone, but you settled as friends so you ended up throwing away the one shot deal? Honestly, I’m not worried. I’ve never been worried about missing my chances at being happy with someone because I know it’s not something that I could never find in myself. I produce my own sunshine and happiness. We all do! It’s on me to share it to other people. I never needed someone to make me feel whole because I am complete whether someone is holding my hand or not.

So what I need is a friend who knows me well, who’ll understand my tantrums and deal with it. Someone I can laugh with and share my stories with. A friend who I can talk whatever with no boundaries whatsoever. A friend who can be my plus one in parties and get drunk with. One who’ll ask me to a slow dance even with a pop music playing. A guy my parents can be comfortable with. Just someone who gets me. I have always believed that two opposite genders can have a platonic relationship. Being anything more than friends is just another label. What matters is the strong foundation and relationship I have with that person. If it turns out that my best friend is the one, wouldn’t that be great?! But if not, a best friend for life is not a loss love at all.

Choose carefully. And learn to love yourself.

xoxo,

G

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100 SUBSCRIBERS IN YOUTUBE?! You guys are the best!!!!!

Last 4 months, I began being active in the YouTube community wherein I constantly post—is posting two videos in four months considered constant?—and actively comment on videos to sub on my channel haha. It gives me great joy to share my videos on the internet. Of course, there’s the hope of getting known duh, but nope it’s not my first priority. These past months, I have learned to love YouTube. I have been watching nonstop YouTube videos about almost anything but mostly about travel vlogs and tutorials on cinematic videos. I have also learned more stuff about editing and using transitions to enhance and to make sick edits lol oh yeah. I can’t explain how much excitement I feel when I edit or when I take videos of myself and other people. Even my friends now call me “vlogger”, I don’t exactly feel shy when I vlog around but I’m not totally confident yet. I haven’t even got past the point of being able to talk in front of the camera with my friends around. I mean I hate speaking in front of people I have the phobia and all but I just love the concept of vlogging that it makes it want to overcome that fear. Ever since I was kid, I have been recording through my phone and camera. I remember using Windows Movie Maker to compose a compilation of my photos and make it into a video with background music.

Anyway, I am planning to upload videos for as long as it gives me happiness. It’s actually quite fun and rewarding to be able to receive comments and love from people you don’t know! I feel like this is my one of my true hobbies in life. And I think I’m going to be doing this for a long time.

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Love,

G

Word Prompt #7 Best Achievement

Word Prompt #7:

Best Achievement 🏆

I DON’T HAVE ANY BEST ACHIEVEMENT. LOL okay what can I talk about here…I guess the fact the I had traveled and visited great states in the United States while working on my own was something that I am proud of. For a year, it was like I was having my gap year. I was working, learning and earning! Now, I’m off to another adventure and hopefully the beginning of my career. I’ll be sharing my next agenda in a few months. 🙂

 

7 Things I Miss About Living in the U.S.

For those who doesn’t know, I was fortunate enough to live abroad for about a year and a month for my internship. My placement was in Chicago and I had the best time ever in my life. But now that I am back in the Philippines, I can’t help but miss a few things. Actually, it’s a lot of things but I don’t think I have enough time to enumerate it all. 😅 So here are some:

Freedom

I was all alone for a year. No parents. No relatives. Sure, I got to talk to them via Skype for almost everyday but with the different timezones and whatnot, it’s just hard to keep up so there was no one telling me what to do and what time I should be going home. It was freeing since I haven’t really experienced NOT living with my parents before my internship. But when I came back and had to meet my friends after a long time,  I was set with a curfew. I honestly can’t say I did not expect it coming but to be able to actually experienced it again was quite unbelievable. But really it’s not all about going out and stuff, it’s also about freedom to travel anywhere I wish and whomever I want. There’s also the freedom to make decisions on my own.

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Winter Season

True to its name as the Windy City, Chicago’s wind can be very harsh especially to those from tropical countries like me. I remember my first day of work, I thought I was all covered good for the fall weather and went straight to open the door ready to go to work thinking the cold couldn’t be that bad but as soon as I stepped out of the door, I could hear the loud swishing of the wind. I was so wrong. I never felt so exposed in my life! The wind blew past my whole body as if I was not wearing anything. I immediately went back inside and gather my gloves, scarf and extra jacket. It was probably because I was still adjusting to the harsh weather, but still…poor me. I had to adjust for months for the cold weather. And just when my body was already settling in, I’m back again in my country experiencing heat wave everyday. I realize that if it’s cold, I can at least shield myself by wearing coats and hats and still feel okay but there’s no going around if it’s hot. Unless of course, you install an internal fan in your shirt.

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Dating

I never was the kind of person open in dating other people but that was before I went to Chicago. The first time I decided to meet up with someone, I bought this draft beer at 711 and jugged the whole thing thirty minutes before the meet up. Why the beer? I can never do meet ups with strangers let alone talk with them SOBER. Reckless? Maybe. So yeah, we met at the train station near my office and since we were going the same direction, we rode the train together. The guy was slurring all the time it was so hard for me to make out on what he’s saying. I swear half the time I just nod whenever I felt like he’s done talking. I had an OKAY time and never called the guy again. Nevertheless, it was a first and nice experience I had. Back here, I don’t even dare open Tinder. Yucky. In fact, it seems like my sexual hormones has been shut off the moment I set my foot back in this country. It’s probably because Filipinos don’t interest me that much. I prefer getting to know someone from other places foreign to me. It’s lovely and exciting, for me. 🙂

Stress-free Life

I don’t mean to sound unfair and ungrateful, but with all the pre-exisiting family dramas plus my personal struggles mixing up, they just don’t add up to my list of reasons-to-look-forward-to-when-I-come-back-home/reasons-to-stay. Nu-uh.

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The People

I’m not sure how to explain this without sounding bias. I’ve only been to other Asian countries but never outside the continent before and I can tell you people in the West are very genuine and nice, in general. Of course, I can’t say that much since I’ve only live there—particularly in Chicago—for a year.  🙄 But like honestly, people would open doors for you, even WOMEN would do that. Also, 7 out 10 people would randomly greet or smile at you. Back here if some stranger do that, one would be very skeptical and think maliciously already. It’s funny. And kind of unfair that I’m thinking so negatively for my people but it’s the naked truth.

No One Gives A Fuck

I may be the the type of girl who does not care of what she wears, most of the time. I do get conscious though, when there’s like an event or something—I think that’s only normal—but definitely besides those, I don’t care. As a foreigner, I was conscious at the way I dressed at first but actually you’d be surprise how people don’t give a fuck about what you’re wearing. They dress up however they want. A lot of times, I had encountered males and females having such out-of-this-planet type of colour in their hair and I just found fascinating that they weren’t conscious about it and wish I could have the courage to do something like that. But here in the Philippines, people are just naturally judgy especially women. How did I know that? Well, I may have been one of those women from time to time. Yeah, shame on me.

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My Dream Lives Up In There

Finally, this feels like the main reason why I miss living abroad. I feel like ever since I got home, my life has been on pause. Of course, I know it’s not entirely true because everyday I deal with stuff that makes me grow as a person. Things such as being considered grown up therefore having much responsibilities than before, the realization that I am not the same person as I was before I left and things like that. I wouldn’t say I’m unhappy here but I really see myself working my way up somewhere else. That I could accomplish something for myself. But you know what? I don’t dream of being a president of some company. I don’t dream of owning a castle. Although I know I wasn’t born to just pay bills and die, I only want enough for me and my family for the present and the future. And I wish I could say that I could get it all here where I grew up and I probably could easily get it, but still no. It’s already very much tangled up that I’d rather start from the bottom somewhere else far than have everything but happiness. After all, happiness is to be found along the way, not at the end of the road. And my map says the start of that journey is not here.

Yes, those are some that made the list of why I miss living in abroad. I may sound a little into living away home but that does not mean I hate it here. I love it mainly because I have my family here. Don’t get me wrong, I have nothing against the country. Just so happens that I fell deeply in love in other places. So yes, I’m a girl who has such a big lust to get away and see the world.

Photo credits: Pictures taken from https://www.instagram.com/chicagobucketlist/ and Pinterest.com

Summer Plans

I swear. I wanted to like write a meaningful post but whenever I open my WordPress blog to write something, every idea just goes out of my mind. A little update then to tell you about my recent activities…I have done my two exams which was the GRE and IELTS. Both results were good, thank goodness or else all my late night sleeps for studying(lol who am I kidding!) would have been for nothing. As soon as the results came in, I started submitting my application for schools and so far I’m still waiting for some documents to be sent for the completion of my application. While waiting though, I do busy myself by helping my dad in his business and playing ‘salimpusa’—a friendly reference to someone joining in an activity, despite not really being a full-fledged member of the groupin his company. So yeah I figured it’s better than doing nothing.

Also, what else?

*literally took a whole minute to think*

Oh, so like last month, I already booked for two vacations for this coming summer. For April, we’re going to Boracay for a week. I guess, it’s been a really long time like almost 8 years since the last time we’ve visited and I bet the algae situation there has worsened, yuck. Not to mention, the heat that we are going to experience. Sometimes, during lunch I can barely take the heat then I remember we’re going to spend a week in the beach and I am like oh my god who’s decision is it to stay there a whole week?! For the month of May, we’re spending a 10-day vacation at South Korea which during that season is Spring so the weather is just perfect, actually. All of these trip agenda were prepared by yours truly and by that I meant the airline bookings, hotels, itineraries, budgets, visa and literally everythaaaang. Despite having those in my hands, it actually makes me really thankful that I’m busy. I can’t really afford to think of any other things right now.

Summer is coming but like my body is still in winter wonderland. It’s still hibernating that diet is not in my dictionary at the moment. Honestly, even my mom and brothers are getting real conscious because of how they eat recently. I don’t know why but it’s just too hard to watch our diet. Haha it’s funny ’cause like once in a while someone will blurt out while we’re pigging out—”I can’t keep on eating, there’s barely even months before we go to a beach”. 😹 Nevertheless, we eat and eat. 🙂 Anyho, that’s all for now. Mwa!

-GLAIRE

Fast Forward to Six Months! 

I can’t believe it. Time flies so fast! I’ve been here for 6 MONTHS already. Half a year and I’ll be saying bye to this country and be back to reality again. I honestly haven’t thought much of what to do after this but hopefully things will work out for me back home. 

For the past six months, I’ve learned to love Chicago, even its nasty weather lol. Actually, it is more of a love hate feels for this place. But what can I say I enjoy my every second here. I work. I grow. I travel. I date. What atm can a girl in her early twenties ask for more? I can only wish for the remaining six months to be nothing but meaningful! Especially…my birthday is coming and I’ll be finally legal. 

I know I’m blessed. Thank you God for this! 😘

Wanderlust Map

If there’s anything that I’m sure about, it’s that I love traveling. I live for it and I’m hoping to see the more of the world and all of it that it has to offer. 

I’ve created a map of the places I’ve been to outside the Philippines, my country. I plan to travel most of the countries around me before exploring to other continents. 

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Asian Countries I've Been To
   Philippines, China, Hong Kong, Macau, Cambodia, Vietnam, Malaysia
And now that I’ve conquered another continent—yep, the USA!—may there be more state visits in the coming months. I’ll be sure to update/add another map to the list. 
I feel blessed enough for having the chance to travel because I know a lot of people want to but sadly can’t. I can only hope for the best for them. Strive and dream on. 

Things I Look Forward To

Hello guys! Sorry for the short posts lately, I was not really inspired. I just wanted to say how hyped I am with what’s happening to me these past few weeks and for what’s gonna happen for the next couple of weeks. Here let me list down the things I’m looking forward to:

March

1. I-LEAD

Tomorrow will be the announcement for the qualified candidates to attend the 5-day leadership program in D.C. We wrote an essay about a leadership topic and then that’s it. I hope I get the chance to participate and if not, then better luck next time.

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2. Phone

I also bought a new phone—don’t worry it’s not that expensive—for a few reasons. First, I want it. LOL I need not to buy a new phone but I figured I deserve a new few things especially I’m earning my OWN money. 🙂 Second, my current iPhone is locked so I couldn’t use any carrier here on the U.S. so not net which is really hard and complicated sometimes. Lastly, my phone’s starting to crank up since I’ve had it for three years now.

3. Phone Cases

I bought this adorable fur case, sticker, and wine case for my phone. I love it and I may have splurged on it but who cares.

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April

1. Night Nation Run

This I cannot truly wait! It’s a 1st running music festival, you know, DJ’s be playing while you’re running at every station and at the end of the musical voyage there’s gonna be like a big party or something. It’s going to be so much fun, don’t you think so?! I’m doing it with Sheena so we better be ready to run a 5K.

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3. Moving in with a new family

I’m gonna be moving out to this crappy house, finally! Oh my god, you guys don’t know anything but I have been living in a hell for months now. People here are so noisy, weird, and I don’t know if they’re even human. Possibly not! I mean like how can someone be so insensitive and play their music so fucking loud in morning and before freaking sleep time. Oh yesterday morning, I was still sleeping and dreaming when suddenly there’s this music blaring to the point where I thought I was dreaming about it then I woke up. Oh my gosh, so fucking rude damn it. DIEEEEEEE!

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4. Indiana

State visit wohooo!

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5. Lighthouses visit

My friend, who also happened to be an intern, planned this trip to visit the Lighthouses nearby Chicago—I’m not sure. Actually, there’s this CHI Squad that we created and the members are all interns from across the world. We kinda go together to different places when we had the chance. So now this trip, probably we’ll go the weekend after the run. Whew, my weekends are full!

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May

1. St. Louis, Missouri

Spending a 3-day vacay in that state doing sightseeing and camping with CHI Squad. 🙂

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2. Washington, D.C.

If I’m qualified for the program, then I can go to the capital of the United States. *fingers-crossed*

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June

1. Duh, my birthday!

Seriously if you guys have any plans on staying here on the U.S. for more than a month, just make sure you’re not under 21 or else you’re gonna miss most of the fun—I mean if you’re aggressive like me.😂🙄 SO FINALLY, I’m turning 21! Did you guys know about wearing a sash and a crown when turning 21? No? Well it’s a thing here, maybe I should do it lol. 😏

Bitch, that’s gonna be me when the bartender asks for my I.D.Kx0gwvQ

2. Niagara Falls

Still pending. But would it not be amazing to see the grand scenery of Niagara Falls?!

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3. Color Run

Haven’t bought tickets we’re still thinking about it. Psyched!

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July

1. Lollapalooza

It’s amazing how the tickets sold out fast. I had to wait for like two hours just to get past through the front gate and buy the tickets. But this is so far my most awaited event. I’m so ready! 💁🏼

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2. Coldplay Concert

Sheen and I bought tix for their concert. We were aiming for a JB or Selena Gomez or Demi Lovato concert but the tickets were soaring and mostly were sold out anyway.  Let’s rock! Lol okay they’re not exactly a rock and roll band. 😂 But hey, they’re not that bad.

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3. Foam Glow 5K

Another run. Hell yeah! Sheena and I are a serious runner. 😂

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4. Las Vegas, Nevada

O.M.G. I’m 21 by that time! 😏 NYEHHEHHHEHEHHEHEHE 😈 Need I say more? And what’s great about us going there, it’s a company paid. There is this CPE convention that accountants should attend in Vegas but who says we’re required to attend that boring lecture? Lol hopefully boss won’t require us to attend the lecture and let me and Sheena wander around the Sin City. Also, there is going to be a night/ball event or something because it’s our boss’s wedding anniversary. Grand, I know!

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5. Page, Arizona

We might drive by the Antelope Canyon when we go to Las Vegas if we have chance.

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I’ll stop here for now. I remember it’s Monday tomorrow. Good night guys!

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Disclaimer: Gifs aren’t mine. 

 

Fangirling

I accidentally just listened to a super sad song on my phone and got really sad. And now I can’t stop listening to it, it’s on repeat mode!

It’s a Japanese song performed by Ai Otsuka (my favorite of all time ^^) titled ‘Renai Shashin’. It was used on the movie ‘Tada Kimi Wo Aishiteru’. Mind you, the movie was sooo good and sad. Again one of my all time favorites.

Thus, fangirling mode activated.

I’m forever in love with anything about Japan. 😀

Toma Ikuta ❤ ❤ ❤
Oguri Shun ❤ ❤ ❤

I even studied Japanese language for like 2 years or less. I got to try wearing Kimono on our graduation and goodness I looked hideous. Meh. I miss my cute innocent sensei tho. *Sigh* I'm that in love with their everything. 🙂 I suddenly miss my friends there 😦

I wanna go to Japan BADLY and I'd like to go there alone. Hihi. Oh my. Just thinking about it… XD

Tired But Never Been Happier

Hiya! So yeah I just got home from my school and I’m so tired. And right now, I’m in my bed lying down with my feet elevated under the pillow.

This morning, I found out that I’ll be going out of the country with my dad. While we’re busy in the living room, he motioned me toward him saying that he’s got something to give. He pulled out bond papers which have those familiar airplaine symbol and yeah I got it! Airplaine tickets(that are printed in A4 papers). As much as possible though, I don’t get myself too excited. I might jinx it, if you know what I mean.

In the afternoon, I had my 1:30-4:30 straight make-up class. It’s not that boring so I survived it. Haha.

And my favorite part of the day….I played tennis with my friend, Michael. It was actually my first time to used the school’s court. It was awkward at first because students and teachers were paasing but we managed to shrug it off. Funny thing though was, we weren’t actually ‘playing’. We kept missing each ball that we had to picked it up all the time. We both end up tired from picking all those balls. It was fun and I hope we can play again next time.

What a day. Totally unexpected.

Bungee Jump Jump Jump Jump Jumping in Macau Tower

I was in Hong Kong this summer 2012 for less than a week. I was with my father and brother. Hong Kong is a beautiful country but people there don’t have good manners so it’s kinda frustrating REALLY!

My father decided we go to Macau since it’s only an hour or two away from Hong Kong. So we went there by a speed boat. My father took a package tour to maximize the time coz’ we’re just on a one day trip. So they took us to different places, the casinos, buildings and lastly MACAU TOWER.

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Macau tower
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We first went up to 61 floor of the tower. It was an observation deck I guess. And what’s amazing there is that there’s a part in the floor where it is a glass and you can see through it and can see the cars down the road. My father was so scared he looked like he’s gonna pee at his pants at any time. HAHA! I actually can feel my legs trembling when I stood in the glass floor but then what’s Macau when I don’t get to try this. While we were amazed by the view, there were some people gasping in one corner, and then that’s when we found out that there was someone doing bungee jumping. And then at that time, I decided I want to try that out as soon as possible. Had I known that we were going to Macau, I should have brought my savings! My dad wouldn’t let me, he told me we were out of cash. Too bad! According to our tour guide, it’ll only take 4 seconds from the 63th floor to the ground and apparently the world’s tallest bungee jumping. Boy! that sounds exciting. My father and brother thinks I was some kind of crazy woman wanting to do bungee jumping. Why not right? There’s also a sky walking, but I don’t find the thrill in it. At the end, it was just another bucket list I have to complete. I’m planning to convince my father to go back to Macau. (Evil laugh) Wait for my return >:D

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