What Calms Me

I never know what to say in the first sentence on my post now. You often hear from me now, I know that. I’m not sorry though. If you should know, there are a lot of new things that are happening in my life now, both exciting and not. I don’t know what to say, honestly. I seldom have the urge to write on my blog now. Unlike before when at the most random moments, a topic would just pop into my head and I’d know what to write about next. It’s not that I’m not sad about it. It just means I’m prioritizing other things for now. And truth to be told, writing is something that calms me. It’s not something that I have to update all the time. This blog seems to be there for me whenever I’m feeling happy, sad, excited or just whatever. It just waits for me to write something in it.

Today, I had a hectic day. Not that I’m not used to be having such a day by now, but today is a little bit different than usual. I worked for 13 hours today and had to travel back and forth to Vancouver. I literally had to carry a little or more than 500 kg of boxes today. Meh, it’s no biggie. It’s just an ordinary Saturday for me. That, I don’t mind. But what’s really upsetting me—wow, okay I’m not that upset—is the fact that I’m mentally bothered by something. You’re getting me, right? I mean wouldn’t you say it’s more stressful if you’re dealing with something in your head than, say…I don’t know, in real life maybe? lol I didn’t know how to compare that one. You get what I mean though, right? Lifting actual shit is bearable than overthinking imaginary shit. Anyway so when I got home, I ate my dinner in a hurry and drew myself a bath. I sipped my wine and relax while watching Friends. After a while, I just listened to my fave lofi playlist and soaked into the hot water. It felt so relaxing that I was so sleepy by the time I took the shower. But by the time I was on my bed—which I am now—I knew I just had to write something on my blog.

Things don’t have to make sense right now. I just have to find a way to respond to things in a way where it can lead no harm to anybody. I know things don’t always happen to the way I wanted it to be and that I have to accept it. It’s just hard, sometimes.😢 I wish I could just turn my mind off thinking things, you know. It’s not like I don’t try to avoid overthinking, it just won’t stop popping into my head.

Nevertheless, I like sharing my thoughts here. It makes me feel a tad better knowing I’ve let it out of my chest. Thank you for taking the time to read, stranger. I hope this post finds you well. It’s all about how you respond to the negativities in your life. Life won’t be positive as it is without these negativities after all.

 

oyasumi,

gurei-san ♡

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